Switchfoot - Learning to Breathe

I love to wake up reading messages from a loved one ^__^
with this song in the air....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJUtQYYLSPU

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

these abundant skies, yeah
abundant skies, yeah

So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you do?

( Aifailoffofyufusofovafaryfymachfach!)

A Biohazard game: I Love You

There was a game, a biohazard ‘I love You' game. One of people's choice favourite and hostile game of all time. Have you heard of this game? OK, let me tell you what had happened ;)

I haven’t been in this game for so long. I wasn’t interested in this ‘I Love You’ anyway. I have indirectly been ushered to this game but I played plain dumb and will ignore any invitations which will lead me to this. However, I got this visiting from a guy, a year ago and I don’t mind being visited by him and I told him I don’t play ‘I Love You’ game. “Me too” he said and we became friends…we played any games ^_^. Then somehow we did play it for we have known each other and there is nothing to be afraid of or doubt anyway. It was meant for fun.

Until one day, I got confused. Geez…what did happen? Shall I surrender and tell him I don’t want to play anymore? It is very uncanny of me to just give up for I am a fighter and even if the character dies, I play it again and again until I scores! And yes, I raised the ‘White Flag’ (reminds me of Dido). “Hey, you won in the ‘I Love You’ game and it doesn’t matter anymore” He was relieved. Next he showed the prizes he got from that game and willing to share it with me. It was our efforts anyway and he wanted me to have it too. I was happy and how thoughtful of him ^_^.

“Yuna, in ‘I Love You’ game he forgot to say the magic word! And that means he didn’t win that war game and you have actually supposed not to surrender that soon” said my friend who have been playing this game like a pro. I got restless and tried not to bother because anyway we have called it even….I Think. Until, “Excuse me, I want to know did I do the right thing?” I asked my friend and somehow my doubts fall in. “IF you want, I can help you…actually it doesn’t work that way” he continues. My world was spinning and spiraling down but I don’t need his help. I know how to deal with it…it is getting more personal now.

“Yuna, I have placed the play cards to your opponent. Did you get that magic word?” my friend sms-ed that evening while I was in the shower. I was like “AAARRRGGGHHH!!”. I know he meant well but I don’t need anyone to baby sit my ‘I Love You’ accounts.

That night, the war game started. It was rather serious this time and I want to end this war, PERIOD! We didn’t choose the battle ground but my friend initiated it. He almost lost in the game. I drop the bomb into the rabbit hole. He knew, it was not my style dropping the bomb that way. A daredevil's move shall I say. He knew what’s in my head that night and have to play his cards right. He was furious with my friend who intervent and placed doubts and nonsense in his girl’s mind. He wants her back and luckily he drew the right card of “You know I love you too”.

“Yuna, actually he’s supposed to throw in two cards of ‘I love you’ and ‘Will you be my girl’ ?” my friend explained. “Oh, shut up will you! I don’t want to play any more stupid ‘I Love You’ war game” Besides I have already settled with him with “No more doubts…no more doubts!”

Phew!
Now I am playing other games like “Behind the close door”, “Headaches Medicare”, “Secrets” and “Mind your own business” . Oh yes, I am also playing the second version of “I Love You”, the “I Love you very much” hahahahaha…

U should try ^__^

I am alright dearie...

It has been so many days I was restless…thinking too much of my life. At first, I thought I’d be ok that I am able to control my emotions. But ever since he can’t online I feel the pain in me…it bothers me so. Putting my concentration on Tribalwars , a diversion, not to think so much of the missing days we have. I guess he felt the same too…his text messaging beginning to reveal his feelings for he is not the kind of person who would just say out loud. I hold on to it and read over and over and over and over again. Whenever I missed him, I read it over and over again. He has touched my heart and melted the iron ore covering it.

The night he told me that he was going home the next day, I was longing for him…crying silently myself to sleep. He has been away too long and I too want him back to where he belong and fix our missing puzzle from where we left.

I’ll be alright, I have him. Ever since I let him into my dream domain, The Plain, I knew it wasn’t just an empty talk and picnic we had back then…it was a gesture to spend together at all times. The dream we share was our only visiting, a time machine, where we run free and express ourselves…

At Eden Prime, counting shooting stars? The night glowed in romantic purple with two moons raised high above. It wasn’t about Burger King and whoopers for supper too. It was just the two of us moonlighting together until we fall asleep…don’t want to let go until the sun greet us and take our dream away …

I am here now…I am calm…I am alright!

Balancing on a wire

I don’t know where we stand but we have mutual feelings and understanding. Once again my life was not like before. We are so far and yet so close. It hurts so much so that I cannot take it anymore. I feel like running away as far as I could and barf out whatever feelings that is hurting me inside. All those words he gave me …only he knew…or was I wrong? The further we are the closer we gets…confused and in dilemma...

We care so much and respect our differences…I was afraid if it is too much, I cannot handle it, I may end up in much worst situation of my life and that my heart was touched for the wrong reason and I can never play the games again…ever!

Today, I cannot withhold anymore and told him so….for I seek the calmness in me, to take away the pain and confusion…I rest my case and I am balancing on a wire...just dont catch me when I fall

Miss you nights

Too tired to sleep, too weary to think, too exhausted to stay another hour…I just want to relax for a while and thought about ….......I used to spend my midnight hour chatting with him…yeah, about anything! Most of the time we end up with our making-up stories, traveling near and far, continuing our rendezvous in another portal, our dream world….hahaha just having fun our ways. I miss our talks and stories….

“Lets go to Rome, we meet at the coliseums” he sms-ed. “Tell me about it, I’ll listen to your war story with awe!” I just love to hear him explaining in details of any war epics like a historian telling me what weapons they had, how many they were, war formation and strategies, right down to the garments, also about the reasons behind the winning and losing. I know some wars but unlike him, he tore it right down in the middle and spread out and turn it into a world map history.

But with text messaging, we just let our imagination run free. “Ok, c ya!” short and sweet but no frills. When he said ‘Miss u dearie’ I guess we both miss our usual good-night-cap to seal it with our usual bedtime stories.

However, we finally rest to sleep with a smile on our face, thinking of nothing else but the fun we just had a few minutes ago with our text messaging game…ending the day…full stop…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gv4JnFClVmo

Lost

It is strange tonight…all quiet…and I am alone..
The oneness and loneliness brought me back to where I was before …totally one and independent and longing for no one…my fingers were not tapping on the key boards but the play station joystick. My eyes glued on the TV Screen absorbed into the characters I played in a game.

But now, my heart felt different, I feel the tinge of pain deep in my heart like a long needle slowly poked through it and I want to cry for no apparent reason. And I feel strange tonight like I am splitting into two. ‘Lost Butterfly’ sang by Rurutia was in the air gives an impact to the surrounding…I am unguard…I am without wings…I am mute…I am blind…I am deaf…I am soulless…I am without dream…I am Vaccum..I am nothing…I am LOST! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWmcUQqoakM

W.E rank 25!

Just a show off!

W.E is now rank 25 in world 7 of Tribalwars! YEAH!!!

Thanks to all members...keep up with your good work...

Quiet Phase

I am very happy that W.E gets going and marching up. I have no complaints since then. Members are doing their best maintaining a neutral tribe concept and for the first time I feel so relax managing W.E in Tribalwars. There is a lot more to learn about this game where you find rivals, friends and foe…In fact, perhaps you find your partner too who is willing to make your goals happening in your tribe and believing in you. Indirectly, it is a virtual society, a community, your own kingdom and civilization.

This week, is a quiet week to me. There will be a big change in my daily activity nearing to the middle of November. I have to adjust myself to whatever circumstances to keep me busy after Tenko left to Bintulu, his home town in Sarawak. Though he said that he’ll be in touch whenever he can, things will be different from then on….I know dear…

I’ll try to spend more time with my favourite guy playing games, exchanging songs, music and any news or info. I think by now, we are more at ease since the day I told him what is in my heart, my mind and my selfness. We just enjoy and share our mutual friendship and perhaps maybe envy to some.

Tenko-san you are the BEST!
Anymore challenging games? Hahahaha..I guess by now you know how far and serious I am when I am in a game…A bit ‘ kiasu ’ you may say for I always want to have the best personal result.
Duke Nukem once said “Come get SOME!” (raining bullets!)
Oh yes, got to horned my shooting skills once again..in Team Fortress 2? (adeii..I tunggu nih!!!!!!)

I am contented! XOXOXOXO

Open Arms by Mariah Carey

Dedicate this song to Dearie :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ye8oc98qfHk