I’m here!
Almost every day I thought of blogging like I used to be. It was fun and I have so many things to write to express what I thought and what I’m feeling. Yeah, it was utterly fun and I feel alive.
I remember Edward Cullen (Twilight) confessed to Bella Swan that he can read people’s mind except Bella. And he wondered why and what so special about that particular girl whom he was so much obsessed with.
I think ‘Love’ makes everything hay wired. You don’t know the reason why you are behaving that way and can’t think of any but that particular person. Your mind body and soul slaved by this obsession and you are not yourself anymore until you accepted the fate that you ARE in love with that particular person.
So once you are there, you left all behind your world and into a new world...a rebirth and somehow you see a bigger picture about your life in front of you. Amazing! Wonderful! Magical too …A reason to start over new…and the reason is YOU! And the reason is YOU! (sang Hoobastank)
I was then into another phase to understand this new self being and devoted only to Love. It feeds on me and used up all my energy and my life somehow depends on this livelihood. Love is a vampire and my life system depends on this Love! Hahaha..Bella wants to be with Edward Cullen forever! But, he protected Bella from becoming one…she’ll never understand...WHY?
I do now... his sacrificial of undying love to ensure her ‘pristine’ love stay untouched and not wanting the beautiful Love to emulate and evolve into ugliness. ‘I bleed it out deeper deeper just to throw it way?’ echoed by Linkin Park…this message should hit your head and makes you wiser…LOL!
Hmmm..I’m still here and Bella, in her New Moon wants to be Forever Dawn with her Edward one day....Muahahaha
