Epic Failure

Sleepless night…

Toss and turn and my hand grab my red and white Nokia 5700 XpressMusic and it lighted up brightly in the dark cold room. Reading back the messages he sent to me and my messages I sent to him…my mouth just glued tightly and tears just flows out slowly…then I went to the 'Miss Call' log, staring silly at the out dated miss call.

My ever favourite companion, the PC, plays a bigger role half of my life… “Oh hello! lets see what you can do for me this time?” I login the Facebook and played the War Metal mindlessly...just carry on with the mission and some battles. ....

Out of the blue, “Hi, do you like Naruto?”; the chat bubble pops out and I replied “ I watched Naruto but I am a Final Fantasy Fan”... I would love to chat with him longer especially when he said that FF8 was the most fun but I was in no mood at all....Epic Failure on chatting!
Later, I recalled the ‘Epic Failure’ photos posted in the FB which make me laughed...so I go looking for it but somehow it fizzles out....Epic Failure on 'Not Funny Anymore' Epic Failure's pictures ...

At the world 7 Tribalwar's Tribe Tatec forum, there was one proud comment on my partner's successful defend his village against our enemy tribe player....“Onvaukter's attempt on Ravager Prime 06 # (857|806) K88 village FAILED!”. Our Baron praised him with “Nice!! I got the reports. Epic fails on -WE- attack!” ....

Lastly I Googled the “Epic Failure’ dead in the night...

Almost 3:00am, this self motivated to sleep is an Epic Failure too. I dreaded myself to bed and another rerun whenever I touch my phone “Huh! Again, Epic Failure” I said to myself as I keep reading over and over our text messages and I couldn’t sleep still. Pressed ‘Image’ and search for some pictures…I remembered he once said “When did I sent you that pic? I can’t recall” Geez, Epic Failure again? I pulled up my comforter covering over my head, closed my teary eyes, grabbed my “Mr Incredible” pillow tightly to my chest and thought of the little kisses I planted that afternoon…zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Emotionally yours

“He said I’m very emotional”

He has the point there but when I feel like I’m falling into the bottomless pit and desperate to climb over, all I do is succumbs to negativity. I wonder if I choked him instead of myself…this sickness is killing me at times…geez!

Listening to the songs from my MP3…each song recollecting ‘my space’ and nostalgia, reminiscing some good times and bad times. I remember the fun, laughter and some crying times too…I was just having good times at the internet and also, I can’t sleep….geez!

Time changes everything and I can’t stop the speed. It keeps me spinning round and round like a wheel of fortune. If you look ahead, you have time to plan that push you forward and unlimited. On your right, your pace of today…the steps you take are accounted for…you are balancing the wheel. On your left, your emotion and real feelings and uncheck reality keep you from falling. If you look back, history is waving goodbyes, some regrets and some bestowed and some….are memories… yearning and wish for more...geez!

I am riding in a roller coaster and only god knows the minute I screamed deafening myself as the car goes down the steep slope and every turn, the cold air blasting in my face….when it goes up slowly, I was gasping for air and ‘No Air’ was drumming in my head…and tears drowning my blinking eyes…almost everyday…but why?..geez!

Nailed needled stapled stitched the “I love you” and “I am with you” at my temple because my heart is already carved poked cut chopped and bleeding “Forever yours”…emotionally well said….geez!

No Air