Where am I?

Ever since most of the W.E members were banned and later some accounts were deleted and lost a few trusted members, I am lost and alone. Though Tenko will always be by my side as my pillar of strength but that has not lifted my spirit in this game (Tribalwars). After tending to some necessities, I sit and wait. I played some new games like Travian, Samurai of Legend and Vampire...it just stop there with no enthusiasm in me. I tried…

I make myself busy going into Friendster, MySpace, Tagged, PerfSpot and update whatever to put back the fire in me but it didn’t ignite my worldliness. I am also saddens to see my playgrounds were left in the cold and untouched by the warm embrace by my dear ones. Was I thinking too much as he suggested? Perhaps…but it doesn’t make sense when a couple of minutes, his greetings was for somebody else instead. It hurts..ok? It hurts...a little brush of denial and some how I feel left out and alone. I surf into YouTube and Metacafe and whatever I could think of to push myself away from the zero degree spaceball. Geez...I am like a bush fire, ever ready to burn myself to make way for a new life. But, I have never forget myself that in my ‘Whatever’, I am Yunie who may be bed ridden one day…I wasn’t thinking too much but in reality it is a fact and I counter check every possibilities to raise my spirit or whatever is left….

So where am I?

McDonald's Prosperity Burger

McDonald started selling their " prosperity burger " again for a limited time only..And this year again ....The same old beef patty " spiced with black pepper sauce " and fresh onions....again...!!!!

But this time they have DOUBLE beef prosperity burger...double yummy!!

McDonald’s Prosperity Burger only comes once a year, during the Chinese New Year (hence the name Prosperity). So it may sound like that I am really looking forward to the Chinese New Year because of the burger, which is true.

Just yesterday my friend, Azizul, was talking about the prosperity burger. We both seem to like the same burgers..The Carls Junior’s, Burger King’s and McDonald’s Prosperity Burgers..ya, just that. We talked about Wendy’s too. Today, I got a flyer on McDonald’s Prosperity burgers and showed it to him. He was delighted and will make a date for the Prosperity burgers! Yummy! Again he passed by and saw me STILL looking through the flyer and was laughing at me “Tak habis-habis lagi?” (Still hasn’t finished going through it?)...actually I was reading a fine print stating “Beef Prosperity Burger is not available in Sarawak” ...I was thinking of my dearie who won't get to enjoy the burger...

But no matter what..I LOVE whoopers! (Burger King) hahaha...

Switchfoot - Learning to Breathe

I love to wake up reading messages from a loved one ^__^
with this song in the air....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJUtQYYLSPU

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

these abundant skies, yeah
abundant skies, yeah

So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you do?

( Aifailoffofyufusofovafaryfymachfach!)

A Biohazard game: I Love You

There was a game, a biohazard ‘I love You' game. One of people's choice favourite and hostile game of all time. Have you heard of this game? OK, let me tell you what had happened ;)

I haven’t been in this game for so long. I wasn’t interested in this ‘I Love You’ anyway. I have indirectly been ushered to this game but I played plain dumb and will ignore any invitations which will lead me to this. However, I got this visiting from a guy, a year ago and I don’t mind being visited by him and I told him I don’t play ‘I Love You’ game. “Me too” he said and we became friends…we played any games ^_^. Then somehow we did play it for we have known each other and there is nothing to be afraid of or doubt anyway. It was meant for fun.

Until one day, I got confused. Geez…what did happen? Shall I surrender and tell him I don’t want to play anymore? It is very uncanny of me to just give up for I am a fighter and even if the character dies, I play it again and again until I scores! And yes, I raised the ‘White Flag’ (reminds me of Dido). “Hey, you won in the ‘I Love You’ game and it doesn’t matter anymore” He was relieved. Next he showed the prizes he got from that game and willing to share it with me. It was our efforts anyway and he wanted me to have it too. I was happy and how thoughtful of him ^_^.

“Yuna, in ‘I Love You’ game he forgot to say the magic word! And that means he didn’t win that war game and you have actually supposed not to surrender that soon” said my friend who have been playing this game like a pro. I got restless and tried not to bother because anyway we have called it even….I Think. Until, “Excuse me, I want to know did I do the right thing?” I asked my friend and somehow my doubts fall in. “IF you want, I can help you…actually it doesn’t work that way” he continues. My world was spinning and spiraling down but I don’t need his help. I know how to deal with it…it is getting more personal now.

“Yuna, I have placed the play cards to your opponent. Did you get that magic word?” my friend sms-ed that evening while I was in the shower. I was like “AAARRRGGGHHH!!”. I know he meant well but I don’t need anyone to baby sit my ‘I Love You’ accounts.

That night, the war game started. It was rather serious this time and I want to end this war, PERIOD! We didn’t choose the battle ground but my friend initiated it. He almost lost in the game. I drop the bomb into the rabbit hole. He knew, it was not my style dropping the bomb that way. A daredevil's move shall I say. He knew what’s in my head that night and have to play his cards right. He was furious with my friend who intervent and placed doubts and nonsense in his girl’s mind. He wants her back and luckily he drew the right card of “You know I love you too”.

“Yuna, actually he’s supposed to throw in two cards of ‘I love you’ and ‘Will you be my girl’ ?” my friend explained. “Oh, shut up will you! I don’t want to play any more stupid ‘I Love You’ war game” Besides I have already settled with him with “No more doubts…no more doubts!”

Phew!
Now I am playing other games like “Behind the close door”, “Headaches Medicare”, “Secrets” and “Mind your own business” . Oh yes, I am also playing the second version of “I Love You”, the “I Love you very much” hahahahaha…

U should try ^__^

I am alright dearie...

It has been so many days I was restless…thinking too much of my life. At first, I thought I’d be ok that I am able to control my emotions. But ever since he can’t online I feel the pain in me…it bothers me so. Putting my concentration on Tribalwars , a diversion, not to think so much of the missing days we have. I guess he felt the same too…his text messaging beginning to reveal his feelings for he is not the kind of person who would just say out loud. I hold on to it and read over and over and over and over again. Whenever I missed him, I read it over and over again. He has touched my heart and melted the iron ore covering it.

The night he told me that he was going home the next day, I was longing for him…crying silently myself to sleep. He has been away too long and I too want him back to where he belong and fix our missing puzzle from where we left.

I’ll be alright, I have him. Ever since I let him into my dream domain, The Plain, I knew it wasn’t just an empty talk and picnic we had back then…it was a gesture to spend together at all times. The dream we share was our only visiting, a time machine, where we run free and express ourselves…

At Eden Prime, counting shooting stars? The night glowed in romantic purple with two moons raised high above. It wasn’t about Burger King and whoopers for supper too. It was just the two of us moonlighting together until we fall asleep…don’t want to let go until the sun greet us and take our dream away …

I am here now…I am calm…I am alright!

Balancing on a wire

I don’t know where we stand but we have mutual feelings and understanding. Once again my life was not like before. We are so far and yet so close. It hurts so much so that I cannot take it anymore. I feel like running away as far as I could and barf out whatever feelings that is hurting me inside. All those words he gave me …only he knew…or was I wrong? The further we are the closer we gets…confused and in dilemma...

We care so much and respect our differences…I was afraid if it is too much, I cannot handle it, I may end up in much worst situation of my life and that my heart was touched for the wrong reason and I can never play the games again…ever!

Today, I cannot withhold anymore and told him so….for I seek the calmness in me, to take away the pain and confusion…I rest my case and I am balancing on a wire...just dont catch me when I fall

Miss you nights

Too tired to sleep, too weary to think, too exhausted to stay another hour…I just want to relax for a while and thought about ….......I used to spend my midnight hour chatting with him…yeah, about anything! Most of the time we end up with our making-up stories, traveling near and far, continuing our rendezvous in another portal, our dream world….hahaha just having fun our ways. I miss our talks and stories….

“Lets go to Rome, we meet at the coliseums” he sms-ed. “Tell me about it, I’ll listen to your war story with awe!” I just love to hear him explaining in details of any war epics like a historian telling me what weapons they had, how many they were, war formation and strategies, right down to the garments, also about the reasons behind the winning and losing. I know some wars but unlike him, he tore it right down in the middle and spread out and turn it into a world map history.

But with text messaging, we just let our imagination run free. “Ok, c ya!” short and sweet but no frills. When he said ‘Miss u dearie’ I guess we both miss our usual good-night-cap to seal it with our usual bedtime stories.

However, we finally rest to sleep with a smile on our face, thinking of nothing else but the fun we just had a few minutes ago with our text messaging game…ending the day…full stop…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gv4JnFClVmo

Lost

It is strange tonight…all quiet…and I am alone..
The oneness and loneliness brought me back to where I was before …totally one and independent and longing for no one…my fingers were not tapping on the key boards but the play station joystick. My eyes glued on the TV Screen absorbed into the characters I played in a game.

But now, my heart felt different, I feel the tinge of pain deep in my heart like a long needle slowly poked through it and I want to cry for no apparent reason. And I feel strange tonight like I am splitting into two. ‘Lost Butterfly’ sang by Rurutia was in the air gives an impact to the surrounding…I am unguard…I am without wings…I am mute…I am blind…I am deaf…I am soulless…I am without dream…I am Vaccum..I am nothing…I am LOST! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWmcUQqoakM

W.E rank 25!

Just a show off!

W.E is now rank 25 in world 7 of Tribalwars! YEAH!!!

Thanks to all members...keep up with your good work...

Quiet Phase

I am very happy that W.E gets going and marching up. I have no complaints since then. Members are doing their best maintaining a neutral tribe concept and for the first time I feel so relax managing W.E in Tribalwars. There is a lot more to learn about this game where you find rivals, friends and foe…In fact, perhaps you find your partner too who is willing to make your goals happening in your tribe and believing in you. Indirectly, it is a virtual society, a community, your own kingdom and civilization.

This week, is a quiet week to me. There will be a big change in my daily activity nearing to the middle of November. I have to adjust myself to whatever circumstances to keep me busy after Tenko left to Bintulu, his home town in Sarawak. Though he said that he’ll be in touch whenever he can, things will be different from then on….I know dear…

I’ll try to spend more time with my favourite guy playing games, exchanging songs, music and any news or info. I think by now, we are more at ease since the day I told him what is in my heart, my mind and my selfness. We just enjoy and share our mutual friendship and perhaps maybe envy to some.

Tenko-san you are the BEST!
Anymore challenging games? Hahahaha..I guess by now you know how far and serious I am when I am in a game…A bit ‘ kiasu ’ you may say for I always want to have the best personal result.
Duke Nukem once said “Come get SOME!” (raining bullets!)
Oh yes, got to horned my shooting skills once again..in Team Fortress 2? (adeii..I tunggu nih!!!!!!)

I am contented! XOXOXOXO

Open Arms by Mariah Carey

Dedicate this song to Dearie :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ye8oc98qfHk

W.E Forever!

Tribalwars: World 7

I am dedicating this song to the tribe W.E and a tribute to all loyal members who brought W.E back to live. Tenko and I are honored and would be remembering that to date is the birth of our tribe Yunie aka W.E.

God bless you all!

W.E ..Keep holding on..I won't give in!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jFaAcRWibY

With YOU by my side I'll fight and defend!

Go stealth

I was a bit taken when he was screaming from the other end like “Damn! You wasted my time!”...thats what I felt. Confusion set in or was I too much? I felt guilty of course and I thought about our nuts, chasing round the bush, exchanging words and our findings trying to find a solution over a non important matter which we thought it was from the beginning…(oh dear!). I went into ‘vacuum’ and isolate myself. I don’t want to think further more but ‘Sorry..sorry..sorry..’

A friend was wondering if I am ok since I was quiet and didn’t say much. I have been receiving a number of negative energies and this small one just added to my blue mood. Ever since ‘I will be off during your General Assembly” My lips were tighten and tears envelope my eyes. I don’t want to show my sorrow and I don’t want to spoil whatever left we had. Days are numbered. For a while I was staring blindly and couldn’t think until he asked “What were you doing?” that brought me back to just play along and have a good chat till morning after. “Don’t make any promises” I once told him for I hate promises. They are either to be kept or broken. I rather take my days run freely and no empty promises.

Sometimes I thought of good friends I have and had. I just wish I could start all over again and maintain the friendship like the beginning of our acquaintance. Those days were more fun and full of laughter. I think they probably agreed.

Windows were wide open and now shutters have set up and soon the blind will completely close and there is only one door...and go stealth

Fatal Flaw by South Jordan

I love this song so much!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9k61jX_G_k

They told me be careful
They said be weary of you
They warned: persistence is the fatal flaw
I find myself waiting
I find myself hoping that you’d
One day fall into my open arms

But it’s okay, you can just call me friend
Even though I mind, I’ll just take the back seat again
Cuz in the end, I’m here
In the end just sit and stare
Seasons change, now making way
As I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting for you

I’ve been here a time or two
Trying to fight the dying breath
Why is every step I take so damn hard
I got some battle wounds from this
I got the sinking feeling in my skin
I’m getting tired of the night
I’m waiting for your light

But it’s okay, you can just call me friend
Even though I mind, I’ll just take the back seat again
Cuz in the end, I’m here
In the end just sit and stare
Seasons change, now making way
As I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting for you

But it’s okay, you can just call me friend
Even though I mind, I’ll just take the back seat again
Cuz in the end, I’m here
In the end just sit and stare
Seasons change, now making way
As I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting for you
As I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting for you
As I’m just waiting, waiting, waiting for you

They said be weary of you
They warned: persistence is the fatal flaw.

W.E is moving up!

It has been many days, Tenko and I, have been playing ‘Spore’ before we check into our Tribalwars game. Beside that, we’ll be sending SuperPoke messages in MySpace, plus playing with our SuperPoke pet Tigers. We love to see whose pet is the most decorated pet. Hahahaha...."Yunie, my Vampire is now level 6” He said last night and showed me the screen shot. I was like “Aaarrgghh!" when I got to know he named ME for his vampire. Geez! I haven’t been playing the Vampire game for many days but I am right behind him (Level 5)..Hmm..I’ll catch up =D

Just two nights ago we were discussing about the growth of our tribe in Tribalwars. The morning after he sent me an interesting text messaging to which I was not surprised at all. Tribe *I* has offered us a mergence with them. Our tribe will be an extension to the second largest and strongest tribe in World 7. Just a month ago we have been trying to get a new sub-tribe called ‘W.E-R’, an academy to the parent tribe, W.E. There were two other tribes offered to become our Academy but were irrelevant. And ever since our encounter with the *I* member council, we have been corresponding non stop, making deals and proposals. We always do what is best for our members. Our members don’t really know the bruises and wounds we had to endure to bring up W.E. It has always been about them, our members. And, it is also about our achievement too, our rank was 28 just two days ago. =)

Today, 6th October, 2008, Tribe Yunie aka W.E is officially known as *I*-R, the most influence tribe in World 7. Ironically there is a similarity of ‘R’ (Recruit) on making an Academy. “Yunie, I know you would love to keep the name W.E ” he said the night before, sensing the restless in me since I didn’t talk much. This time, I let him have the upper hand, his tribe, his decision. Tears swelling from the corner of my eyes, not wanting him to know the real truth how I felt that night.

I couldn’t hold on anymore and I had to let it out, I was crying when I saw W.E as *I*-R. I underestimate myself of wanting the changes, which benefit the members. I felt the lost for losing the original identity...our main purpose in playing Tribalwars. Tenko was not available but I am also not so sure if he could handle my sorrow. “Houston! We have trouble!” I quickly called Naqi and the rain set in.

In memory: 19 November 2008, is W.E’s 1st anniversary

OK and not ok

Ok…..not ok…..ok…..not ok….ok…not ok
Yeah, I am getting fed-up of can’t be doing much of late. Most of my activities have been slowed down…I will online occasionally just to catch up with him. “What are you doing?” he asked. “Nothing, just with you” for I have no energy just to browse my usual routine checking on the Tribalwars and others. I just want to chat after hours and hours of sleeping and recuperating. My mum will come in once a while to check if I am ok.

“If you are not well, please don’t go or you’ll be sick” he advised on my pre-planned Saturday outings. It was a great Saturday and text him once a while, ‘There’s a cosplay at Mid Valley’. My supposed to be shopping was ditched and went to the Convention Center instead, participated in some online games just to get that blown-up Panda Toy. My feet were aching and the blisters were slowing my strut…Geez! Later on, gave him full details of whatever fun and the spoilt dinner we all had. It was great but not to the fullest, it could have been better. I woke the next day with heavy head and exhaustion was hampering me all day.

Last night, after played ‘Spore’ for awhile, I told him the frustration I felt on being sick and not able to be active for the past week. I felt guilty of leaving all the Tribalwars’ matters to him alone and promise to come back once I am truly alright. “Can you handle it?” seeking assurance.. He is the most patient guy I know who will absorb anything I give…time, disappointment, anger, fun, laughter and endearment…He IS the Panda! Rough but yet gentle where I usually will run to him for comforting. As for Tribalwars concerned, he knows that I’ll defend and fought for him to the fullest. If not, what is ‘W.E ’ (tribe) without him and me. We are partners! And as for the sick me…I am a fighter…his side kicks…is fighting out to kick some butts!

Feeling weak and drousy....
Just you wait Eden Prime, I am on my way there…
The deep purple will fall when the blue and the red moons are high above and we’ll be counting stars for the Burger King wars! Hahahaha…yeah..Whoopers! ZZZZZZZzzzzzz……

W.E!

Hi

It has been awhile I have not blog. Busy as ever!
But last night, I discussed about our tribe’s next plan with my Tribalwars partner, Tenko, leader of Yunie tribe aka W.E (Whatever!). We were surprised that though most of our members are and were under siege but our ranking is still rising. Surprisingly more players wanted to join our tribe. There is nothing special in our tribe as we are neither fighters nor looking for trouble. Unlike our allies who have more fighters in their tribe where some of our members joint venture with them taking other players’ villages.

Looks like the 2nd biggest tribe *I* aka Immortal is pounding on tribes like us and our allies to gain more points to conquer the North, South and West for coalition, to be the number ONE in World 7 where T.F.B aka The Fluffy Bunny has been holding the trophy for such a long time. Wake up T.F.B!

“What is your next plan, Yunie?” He asked.
Well, I thought W.E should have more grounds in world 7. Just last Sunday, I have sent nobles out to conquer some villages at another continent and thus explaining to Tenko on our movement to settle in the center block of world 7 and then spread out like a star. “It is like the Chinese!” I told him. “You know, there are china town in every country in this world and I want to adopt that plan” I smiled. And yet, time is the factor. I am wondering for how long we are going to play this game. It is not easy to be the Duke and Baron in the tribe. We don’t play full time and will log in whenever we can. “Tenko, we did well ha? We are rank 32 in World 7! Best fifties! I never thought we could go this far and that we have so many members now….Are we going for 20?” The feeling was so soothing and damn proud of our achievement.

W.E’ll see…!

Colours of the day

Grey
There is a period I call it Grey Period as nothing seems right as planned, wrong words, wrong perception, misunderstanding, bad news and nothing seems to be over whelming; hurt and sadness goes deeper and deeper.

Blue
I felt blue and can’t even lift a smile. My mind wonders away thinking and thinking and perhaps rerun of the incident which I wish I could have make changes, to make a difference, to make a mend. Teary eyes reflect the pain and sorrow in me.

White
This could be pure and my internal instinct has not betrayed me at all. It could also mean that I am worried and scared shit to lose a valuable asset. Picture framed, hoping to steal the moment to stand still.

Red
My heart beats faster and harder. I am alive but life is like dead….will I bleed for you?

Black
It does not resemble evil but restoring my sanction, back to my cold dark room.

Yellow
A bright light showers me with warmth and kindness, hugs and kisses that still waits for my return patiently.

Purple
I brave the storm. In silent no words express my sadness moment….

Charming!

Ever since we became closer, our conversations are more casual and relax…buddies! He’s very open and we are very playful. I used to say that he’s mysterious and I think he like the idea of me portraying him as Cloud Strife (FF7 protagonist)who is sensual, quiet, a loner and mysterious. From my point of view, he likes to be in control of himself but is he able to dodge his Yunie’s charm? Hahahaha…..(just kidding!)

He makes no plan and if he wants to go he’ll just go along with his guts to which I think sometimes he is nuts! “Could you at least check it out? Have you confirmed? Where are you now? What? So What now? Stay put and get help..bla..bla..bla..” I turned out to be a nagging nanny at one point (My eyes are rolling..tist!tist!tist!tist!) Hmm..I wondered if he enjoyed making me being over-the-edge and worrying. “I’ll be ok” That’s what he’ll say in return.

Recently he’s adding more kilos for his six packs (hahahahaha…) but back in my mind I wished I could say “You are really a Panda!” since he is always “I have just eaten but am still hungry” and off he goes for more bites..Geez! Last night he wrote “Hehe..I cannot fit in to my slack and I am zipping half way” I was laughing my head off. I feel sorry for him and wish I could help him…(hahahaha..LOL! still laughing! Oo dear..)

“You don’t have to cook tonight, I think I have had enough about food” me, making up story. It is our way to bid goodnight, so we put up some imagination on places we should go or would be doing in our dreams..yes, dream! “Then where are you going?” he asked. “The usual place” I said. For the first time he complaint about us going to my choice of destination. This time he wants us to be in his dream world. “Lets go snorkeling in Similanjau (somewhere in Sarawak)..the water is crystal clear and there are many corals and fishes to see and I want to meet Patrick the Star Fish (from Spongbob, his favaourite)!” he giggles. I was so delighted to hear that he finally cooking up a story instead of me..(hahahahaha…charmed!)

So off we go…snoring zzzzzzzz! (Geez..it is snorkeling la…!)

Secret rendezvous

“Do you want to come?” I asked him

It is a place that only existed in Yuna’s world, just a plain, a grassland, an open space..so wide and serene but I have a favourite spot. It is just by the stream over a slope there’s a shady tree. The stream is crystal clear with lots of beautiful pebbles in it. The weather is fine and windy.

“What do you do?” he wondered
I usually go there for a picnic…relax, lying in the grass. I can even hear the soft trickling sound of the river and the grass whistle when it rubs against each other in the wind. “Ok, I’ll come because I am going to roll in the grass” he said. I laughed because I find it rather odd and funny. Back in my mind that after all the years, I have not told anyone of my secret rendezvous...One must thinking that its weird but to fall asleep I usually imagined of this secret place I’d go to. Just to ease my mind and calm me down.

“I’ll bring the sandwiches and you bring the Ribena” we chuckled. He knows that I am good at setting up mind games which we call it bed time stories just before we bid goodnight. Maybe it is something new to him; maybe he was just being cool and played along; maybe he just want to make me happy…..maybe..maybe..maybe..maybe..

Just use your imagination to make up a wonderful story and adventure, sharing with someone whom you care and who is/are very sporting and it can make your day extra special.

Down..down..down..down...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AsnIESGLsfE

Hold on dear Yuna!

It was about this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xo0bpPbiUlM
I’ve been listening and singing it over n over to make room and to be free again…Having a fabulous time playing games online and I feel home once again and I am not alone…

I can’t help laughing and admiring the Jonas Brothers did their gig on their official ‘Hold On’ video clips…I feel my room lighten up, with my guitar hero in my hand, following Kevin’s dance and movement and pretending I am with them too….wuhoo!

“We don’t have time left to regret (hold on)
It will take more than common sense (hold on)
So stop your wondering take a stand (hold on)
There's more to life than just to live (hold on)

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on”

I have lost too many friends…friends that hurt my feelings..
I forgive them and I hope they enjoyed the friendship that I gave or offer..
I don’t need more…just be with me drowning my empty room with so call friends who believe in sincerity and simplicity…

Hmm..sometimes I am a bit hard and yet I am not pretending
Rest assure, I was just helping…
So come on and sing with me if you believe in
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhlcOMxBMoo

“When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don’t forget to hold on, hold on”

I am nobody’s baby

“u r a different girl” he said about me.

Lets talk about this, me being different and I think everyone has the right to be different, their own identity. ‘u r the first gamer girl that I come to know’ he explained. At first I was a bit apprehend with that statement. I believe there are many other girls gamer in the world. But perception works differently through the eyes of a person.

By nature, I am a very private person. One hardly sees me mingle but I am quiet popular with the people who knows me who I am…a blogger and a gamer. Just asked me, I’ll sincerely help out but just don’t bark at me. I retreat and won’t come around to appear helpful. I’ll just go away and do my own things. A lady, I believe was trying to get to know me better but she find it hard to reach me and maybe that’s where the problem started. If you are nice…I am nice too and I am sorry if I am NOT a chatty person. But I AM chatty IF they got my ‘spot’..my attention...my interest…my ‘Whatever’..

“I am going to die chatting with you” he once cracked a joke out of my chattiness. It is because we share the same interest and I feel relax. Maybe due to my different-ness she attacked me …leaving me puzzled and hurt. If she needed help, she can just ask me. If she wants me to respond quickly, she may just informed me. Not judge me through her eagle’s eyes, hawking my activities. What IS the point here? I can’t change and my world is different than that of hers. And so is my circle of friends. I respect her ways of living and hope she respect mine. I am not here to please anyone and I am nobody’s baby too. I am just being who I am, minding my own business.

One should not judge a book by its cover without even reading the summary? Hmm…if you want to get to know me better, try playing Final Fantasy, Resident Evil, Quake, Medal of Honor, Devil May Cry…bla..bla..blab..bla..bla..(games)... where all the boys are! Hahahahaha….XD (just kidding!)

If not, just join the Mybloglog…for I love reading your blog(s). :D

Kung Fu Panda Day!

Last Saturday, I thought of watching Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull but unfortunately it was sold out but Kung Fu Panda…”Hmmm..kids stuff!” I was reluctant to see it but I bought it anyway after the looong que at the CG Mid Valley. “Yunie is at McD, eating French fries, another half hour for Kung Fu Panda” Me exchanging messages with Tenko to kill my boredom. “Kung Fu Panda is the Best and Hilarious! That’s what they say” he replied. Well, he was right! I was laughing at all the funny and brilliant remarks in that movie. I somehow relate the characters in the movie to W.E members in Tribalwars. Gosh! That was even more funnier and was laughing away…I wish I had a friend with me to share with…Geez!

" Yesterday is a history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift, that's why it is called the present - Master Oogway (Rebelrednex)..

Hey, go and watch Kung Fu Panda... :-) so many beautiful quotes in it..I love it! you must see the Tigress (Rinoa-san) bashing Tai Lung (DragOOnaire) and Panda (Tenko) saved the W.E members..YEAH! oh yes, other characters are Monkey (Fareeq), Mantis (Cellster), Viper (Huipinglai), Crane (Sir Donicus) and Master Shifu (Ayaghi)... you’ll watch the movie differently which is much more funnier when you replaced the Kung Fu Panda characters to W.E players acting in it...XD.. I am GAMED! Hahahahaha….." I told him

I am glad that I enjoyed the movie but could someone make another Final Fantasy movie please!! It would be heaven to me….oh dear!

I slept early that day as I was getting ready for my usual midnight rendezvous to TW-ing until wee hours in the morning. I looked at the clock it showed 12 midnight and was thinking of someone who would be spending with me at this hour but he can’t. It was a silent evening. I picked up my phone and saw “miss call at 20:00” Geez!
Y:Hello? You called
Him: Ya, I was just making a miss call to you
Y: Oh? I’m sorry I was sleeping at that hour. What’s up?
Him: miss ya
:) yeah, I miss you too (How nice....!)

Just you

Have you ever felt ‘alone’? Yes, just alone.
Sometimes out of the blue when you have a bad day or unpleasant experience and you bottled up …no one to share with ...the problems that are bugging you…make you feel all alone. Sadden by that atmosphere, trying to compose that you are fine but deep inside you almost gave up hope and slowly dying….spiritually dying.

Isolate yourself not just in a room but anywhere. You are not connected and you don’t want to be connected. You are an alien because you felt different than others. Hmm..you just want to be left alone. Your heart sank and you feel that sensation right down to your bone and it is cold. Your eyes swelling in tears, an escape pod of being pressured. You think of no one but yourself…Why Me? Is often the question…Flashes of familiar faces or friends passes by …Yet you don’t care…and you don’t want to be bothered….

“Are you alright?” She asked. “Not really and why?” I said. “You are visiting me.” as she was concerned. “Am I?” I was wondering and not thinking. “You’ve been here before and you were crying” she was recalling. “I just want to sit under that cherry tree and waiting” I explained, not wanting to bother her. “I saw you waited no one but just gazing at the river banks” how true…but how does she know? I wondered. “I AM waiting for someone” I felt the pressure and my eyes swelling in tears. She hugged and patted my back. “I am here now; I’ll stay with you by that tree. I’ll hold your hand if you want to and you can cry as much as you want for I am the other side of you”

Sometimes you need to go to a place where no one knows and you find yourself once again…….

http://www.vgcats.com/comics/extras/stillalive.php

Sabotage

Just last night, I received a sms from Han, my ever ardent W.E member. “Yunie, read my mail” I was online with Tenko, discussing on some plans with him as usual. I was shocked to know that Audun from the tribe *I* has launch a massive attacks to all W.E members. “This is gong to be the prime news in our forum” I told Tenko. And today it is a buzz. Ayaghi, the 2nd in command in K79, was trying to calm our members by advising them on what to do. News posted everywhere…

“Yuna, I have being dismissed by Dakota1213. Who is Dakota1213?” Fareeq, our no. 1 warrior, was puzzled. I was shocked? And I haven’t the slightest idea who that person was..IMPOSSIBLE!..we do not give out special privileges to just anyone but its true..it happens…somehow everything has gone awry “..dimiss..dismiss..dismis..invites..invites..dismiss..invites” were displayed at the board. I was SHOCKED! It was like a war games on dismiss and invites. Tenko did not pick up my calls. I think he was busy tending to that problem. “Duh..He also change our tribe description..don’t worry dear, I’ll fix everything” Tenko sms-ed. Gosh..! W.E has been sabotage! Due to dismissal of members, W.E’s rank from 60 has gone down to 76. Oh..man..what a bad timing, just when we are getting ready with Audun’s inbound. Damn!

I just couldn’t wait to go home and pay more attention to W.E. Attend the disease or whatever bugs in our plans. Giving some love serum for the speedy recovery. At the moment I am sure the General of W.E is doing the best he can to retain back whatever has been lost. That will do, Tenko…that will do…that is all I could think of after hearing from him saving W.E from the disaster. Luckily the General was on guard. Phew!

Please don't cry....

I should be happy today since our tribe W.E in the Tribalwars is ranking no. 61. There have been lot of changes in W.E management as we move forward. The members are very supportive and they are very jovial too. Tenko and I laughed at the jokes on when they finally figure out that yunie10ko and rinoa-san, are girls.

Yet this week is my 'blue' week. I was trying to not to think so much about this but I can't. At time I pause...thinking about him...he seem to be cool...I try to be cool too. My mind was like a projector but going backwards tracing the day we got to know each other. I like him so much as he makes me laugh! A very easy going fella, supportive, comical, hot temper too, forgiving and mischievious. My eyes in tears just the thought of him. I stay silent...most of the time. I know I'm going to miss him so...it will be a silent night....

"Yuna, if u see the Karmen Rider action figure..please don't cry" he seems to know how my heart will sank by just seeing those toys I used to get for him. "I'll remember you for the rest of my life, Yuna" I cannot hold my tears anymore. Am I asking too much because I know the day will come and it wont be the same anymore. I have prepared myself for this situation six months ago. "Naqi, thank you for being my best friend...that is all I need from you...and I am sorry if I did you wrong" It was the saddest moment that we both rained in tears. He kept saying "Love you, Yuna! and don't you cry". I dedicated this song to him as I know I will miss him.....so muchy.....and life has to move on.....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8JX8fA-6Ps

Missing you too....

Hello! I m back!

I was away helping out for the Asia Media Summit 2008 at Nikko Hotel for three days. It was tiring but I met a number of wonderful students from Limkokwing University, Botswana and of course some amorous delegates too. It was also wonderful to meet my long time friend, Noraini too... "Yuhoo Yuna, I miss you!". I love joking with her as she is full of life. I envied her sometimes. “Yuna, she’s very nice towards you” my boss, Mary, suddenly voiced. Noraini would do just anything for me making sure I’d be comfortable during my assistance with their Company.

“Yuna! Where have you been? I miss you soooooooooo muchy!” I guess Fareeq was searching high and low and has been wondering on what had happened to me. Out of the blue I was ‘dead’ for 4 days….Hahahaha….( I left offline messages but unfortunately he didn’t get it). Tenko-san was manning W.E while I was away and I would be checking it from 12am until 4am and then catching some sleep before going back to Nikko by 7:30am. On the forth day, I gave in and needed more rest.

“I don’t want to share my Yuna with anyone!” screamed Naqi. Naqi left his messages yesterday morning when a ‘someone’ nosing about me. Naqi, Tenko and I, we have bonded a special kind of friendship…hmm..very hard to explain…all in a virtual manner….accepting who we are…our closeness…we are more than that…so close and yet so far…In reality and yet fairy tales? “Ya, me too!” Tenko felt the same, telling me not to worry so much.

It is nice to know that you are being loved, appreciated and protected.

Alien verses Predator!

Tenko, Fareeq and I, we share some common interest like in games, songs, movies and hobbies. What we love most is about history on wars. The three of us will chat endlessly on war games, weapons, tactics, famous incidents, quotes, war movies…bla….bla…bla…wars! Somehow we ended up playing Tribalwars together. Among three of us, Fareeq is the most aggressive one who will use ‘Command & Conquer’ tactic. He and his fellow comrades act like a pack of wolves bringing down the unwanted players or any threatening players, keeping the peace in K88. Tenko, the assassin type, who loves the under covers’ job, would rather work on his own than in group. “The General, the most important person, would stay behind giving orders and focus on the mission” he said…Ggrrrr..{Oh, yeah?} And me, I am more like an ambassador, a liaison officer, a diplomat, a councilor, bridging a relationship with the other tribes and advisor too to both gentlemen and W.E members. I will try my very best to create rooms for our tribe to grow by creating ideas and visions besides seeking approval by her gentlemen.

Somehow, “You love Aliens?” Fareeq was surprised that I too loves all the Alien movies especially played by the actress, Sigourney Weaver. “Yeah, Predators too!” I declared “but I love Aliens more and Tenko loves Predators” I told him. The boys LOVE predators so much and we were trying to proof which one is the strongest…Alien or Predator?

Boys: Predator!
Me: Alien!
Boys: They are civilized and intelligent, a skilled hunter.
Me: Alien, an intelligent animal who use their basic instinct for survival. They live in a colony and adapt to all kind of surroundings!
Boys: They have cool gadget and superb weaponries
Me: Alien is self proclaimed killer weapon on its own!
Boys: Predator lives on a planet of its own
Me: Alien lives anywhere and everywhere they like...hahahaha…
Boys: ?????
Me: Alien will take any living creatures as their surrogate mother! Hahahaha..you just name it!

Me: Alien marries Predator…a new breed, a Predalien!
Fareeq: You think Alien can dominate Superman?
Me: Why not? A Superalien! Wearing underwear! LOL! Hahahaha…WOW! I have yet to see this because Superalien can fly! Inherit Superman’s abilities…what a bonus indeed!
Fareeq: What about Spiderman? Who is the strongest?
Me: Of course Spidalien! Hahahahahaha……GOSH! Spidalien swinging from web to web!

I was having a fun time already, dodging everything queries from Fareeq on Predator verses Alien. Yeah! I strongly believe that Alien is more dominant than predator. I love the movie where Sigourney Weaver playing the role of part human and part alien…..a Humalien? Don’t be humiliated people for she is the super human breed! Excuse me John Rambo..make way..make way…hahahahaha….Girl Power! Yeah! XD