Transformers mania!

Wuhoo...Transformers Mania hits the town!

"Transformers, more than meet the eyes. Transformers, robots in disguise!"

http://youtube.com/watch?v=MRz2Z_BbyvQ

It was just long ago when we used to watch Transformers on the TV but now on Silver Screen!!! Yeah!! Thanks to Mr Steven Speilberg. Without him, there'll be no Raider's of the Lost Ark, Close Encounters of the Third Kind, Poltergiest, Jurrasic Park, Jaws, Minority reports, War of the worlds, and bla..bla..bla.. (to name few). Transformers is about Autobots battle against Decepticons...as usual the good against the evil! I would like to thank my informer hahahaha..., Naqi, who told me that he had watched the movie and it was absolutely BEST! And I informed my good friend, Fendi about the good news. Fendi has been using Autobots' avatar for his Yahoo Messenger since day one. I'm sure he's excited as I am.

Reminising the original Transformers...http://youtube.com/watch?v=fB0_vJUc3o4 , http://youtube.com/watch?v=dsw-KSiO0VE

Yuna! Transform!(hehehehe)

If you played FF 10...see how Yuna transformed from a shy naive goody-goody girl to a more confident vibrant and a go getter girl in the FF 10 part 2. Wuhoo!

It comes and goes.....

Peek-A-Boo! Hi! I'm out of my rotten fruit! Hahahaha...just kidding!

People come and people go...that's how I see it. Get acquainted if I wanted to and see how it goes. I met a lady 3 months ago at the hospital. We chatted like as though we're known each other for so long. And I met her again today. I called her, Lady Luck. Like before, we enjoyed each other's company. Somehow there were many topics to talked about. Looks like we were the only people seemed to be enjoying the waits...to be called. But after that, it was just a sweet goodbye...no forwarding contacts info and no question asked but we hope to meet again. I'm okay with that. I'm used to be a nobody, a somebody, a nobody, a somebody and a nobody in the end....perhaps a somebody when missed. Hey! that sound like a sad ending ya...but I'm used to it and I'm okay with that. I 've accepted this spinning wheel all my life. So I've learned not to get too comfort in whatever relationship or condition I'm in and I agreed with the Lady Luck that in life, best not to have a great expectation, high hopes and seek for any returns. A good deed IS just a good deed...blessed your soul. Your satisfaction is as your desired. Because it would be a great rewarding, a great expectation, great returnings and feeling appreciated when someone comes thanking on your small deeds and your contribution. Whatever you do or give...do it sincerely! Then your heart felt no pain and your mind free from the evil thoughts. Thats the price of freedom!

So people come and people go, thats how I see it. Get acquainted if I wanted to and see how it goes...Smile please!

Best of Friends

Look me into my eyes...Can you tell me what I'm thinking? or who am I ? Just guess!

After getting to know a person 'this' close where we became SO close and yet it is NOT enough. He wondered more or perhaps the only 'factor' that bothers him. Make me thinking...why so? and why now? He said that a best friends has no secrets and we share a lot of 'whatever' ...we talk, we laugh, we cry, we tell, we stinks! hahahaha,we are all of it...yeah we enjoyed each other's company...yeah VERY much! A few colleagues do envy of our relationship. "Yuna, I too want to become like that...to be your best friend"

You see, many times I have mentioned this..it is about TRUST and respect. It is NOT easy to Just Trust anyone. It disturbed me, thinking I should share with a few more (people) of this kind of bonding. "Why not?" someone asked me. The reasons are simple, misinterpretation and misunderstanding.

"We're best friends only and not more than that" I told him. "Why is that so?" he asked me those day. "Because you'll only get burned!" I hope you remembered these words. He laughed and agreed...because both of us has been burned before..hahahahaha!Best!best!best! my friendship with GG. But he has a new interest and has encourage me to go for that interest too. He wanted to share what he had found and giving his trust and assurance that it is okay to give it a try. This time, open my heart and enjoy life with a new beginning.

Ok, GG. I'll follow your advises. I'll give it a try. I'll copy you la..hahahaha because you're a copycat! Oh hello...looks like I'm becoming a copycat too. Ok la, lets put it like this ..we're still in the same boat ..like before..with our new interest until we reach the dock. We help each other right? What are best friends for...but please la...NO MORE doubts..NO MORE probings..NO MORE asking too much like you have not known me...

Kiss from a rose by Seal

Kiss from a rose

I read somewhere that "Love grow from understanding but love itself cannot be understood."

I read this over and over again trying to comprehend and the 'Love' I have gone through...tragic separation and divided into time...unfold a mystery..hanging onto the second wave of dilemma...to be or not to be..with you dear...or this time was it just plain affection and thoughtfulness...to settle my restless heart...or just cheating time?

It is easy for you to say "Come back to me"...if only in my story there were just 'You and I'. Believe me I wouldn't change it one bit! But did you know, the more I get of you the stranger it feels?

Standing in time

If only I could stand in time.

I know that you are still hurt. I bring you no joy but pain. The turbulance of our life will only make us further apart....guess we pretend too much....not hoping too much...but I can feel you... and...I know you...

Don't try any harder. It will only brings you sorrow. You'll be alright from where you stand. You did ok...you did ok! Don't run no more because I am not following and I'm tired. Don't chase me no more because I am still here...standing! and I'm not hiding. You know where to find me...in fact all these years....you KNOW how to find me!

If you go to Zanarkand, you'll find me there! For I am YUNA and always be!

The Ghost of Me????

I'm ok..I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok..I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...I'm not ok..I'm ok..I'm not ok...
how I wish life is simple...

The Ghost Of You Lyrics

Healing my heart

This ........... will remain in my heart for the rest of my life.

GG was just making sure I was alright. Told him things haven't been good for me this month (June)...too many things happening, mostly pulled me down under...nothing is of great news....its getting complicated....

Riz talked about our very first lunch date but he was taken back on how much KL have changed. He's been gone too long. We went to the Monte's for fish n chips! While waiting, I really had a good look at him. Everything of him was still the same except he had put some extra pounds..chubby cheek . I love his smile! I love to look as his teeth whenever he smile. Yes! before and even now....it really melted my heart! Oh dear me....!!

It was like as though this is our first date...like shying away and some light and easy conversation. Some talks were repeated a number of times. He complimented and so did I. He jokes and so was I. He talked about his work and me too. Talked about our parents...and suddenly we stared at each other...I think we remembered the tough time we had...we were silent for awhile. Our silence brushed away our light and easy conversation.

He started by apologising for alienated his lady love. He said he was like crazy those years and wished that I had been there for him. "Please wait for me, Yuna!" He wished I haven't given up. And as for me, I was like "I miss you like crazy" since he only contact me like twice in a year. Hello? I need 'something' from him as an assurance like "I miss you like crazy too". Riz has changed, he's not angry like before. He's more calm and perhaps he has accepted our different ways. We're two of a kind I must say. We love, hate, love, hate..in the end we respect each other. One thing though, he STILL cannot accept me as a friend. Like a sign for reconciliation or what? I pretended not to understand (Yuna! you meany!). Before I lose my whatever with Riz once again and I don't want that to happen anymore.....I don't want him to think I'm being inconsiderate or cold hearted Yuna, I told him the truth! About me....."Riz, I'm not well.. bla..bla..bla.." Everything seem to be in a stand still. Riz was shocked and I saw tears welling in his big brown eyes. I just covered my face (crying)...the rest...you don't have to know.....

Reminiscing the dance

May I dance with you?

During the College Prom night, I think it was the happiest moment for everyone. The guys were in their best clothes and shoes and the girls, dressed up to kill! Wow! I remembered that every classes had to present a show that day. It was very entertaining. My class presented a traditional malay dance. My dance partner was my best friend, Shah..hehehe..Hello Shah! you just can't let that amorous Ismail to become my dancing partner ye! Thank you la...My boyfriend, Ronnie (Riz) and his best friend, Jiva, presented a comical dance that day. They were wearing raffia strings for skirts, two half coconuts covering the top and wigs like the Hawaiian girls and did their gigs of Hawaiian dance...with a song that goes 'Your body..my body..everybody loves my body!' Everybody was laughing and there was a big applause. I was so proud of him that night, can't imagine he was so comical and creative.

Later in the evening everyone was having a ball on the dancing floor. Me? I was too shy or perhaps I don't want to be seen like dancing Madonna! Suddenly the light went out and then dimmed. A slow number was in the air. I felt someone was holding my right hand and whispered "May I dance with you?" I looked up...it was him and felt like giving him a big hug! But mind you, all my classmates doesn't know that Ronnie and I were couples except Shah. So we dance!! I STILL remembered this 'Feeling' I had inside that day. First time we dance! Him, holding my cold hand and me being so closed to him...and some whisperings (giggles.) But the clock stroked 12:00am, I had to go...he held my hand not wanting to let go...I guess...it was just our beginning that night...."but Ronnie my dad IS waiting!" Like a Cinderella..I hurried to my dad who was waiting to bring his daughter home safely

Snapped! Hello...I am back from reminiscing, yikes!

My Rock!

Do you believe in the knight-in-shining armour?

Hmmm..let me think ya? Reality ...No! Fairy tales...Yes!

A relationship is not built in just a few days of fun and laughter and lived happily ever after. I had my share of time, I went from having fun, likings, interested, seriouness, happiness, lovey-dovey, cloud 9, understanding, wanting, longings, frustration, hurtings, misunderstanding to silent....totally silent. The impact was so great that I viewed other knights in rusted steel armour. Ouch!

Well, if you happens to find one, the lady has to polish the armour...like it or not...take it or leave it. After all you will be polishing his armour for the rest of your life! Sorry guys! I think you're such a baby and perhaps a spoilt brat too. Can't you get down on your knees and help the lady to scrub the floor too? Definitely NOT? Right?

The lady usually is willing to accommodate the changes for a man. But to understand a man is like undertanding a ROCK! Yes, a rock. A hard solid piece of earth thingy. You see IT as it is but can't see whats in it. If you're lucky and cracked open, you'll find a piece of gem but if not...just dirt. To move a rock is easy but a boulder? Sorry ladies...you have to polish his armour and slowly move that boulder yourself. (Sight!)

Ok whats in with me? Hmmm..I'm going to get my hero..the one without the armour and a scupltured rock! Hahahahaha.....

I shouldn't have

I got this pic from a friend's blog. I really like this one.

Sorry Tenko I didn't asked your permission for this purpose... I'm stealing? No..I didn't claimed that that was mine la...

Just want to give you a jolt of surprise! I have an idea to write about it. Thank you in advance!

I Knew I shouldn't have gone camping today!

The word "I shouldn't have" is about one has made a decision to which one felt regretted at the end of the day. But you cannot turn back the time and undo what you have done. Face it or you score the unfortunate. I rather face it! I've never run away from any decisions I've made in my life. Honestly! Face it like a gentleman? I rather face it like a MAN! Don't laugh or being prejudice on the word 'Man'. You see...a woman have to strive very hard to be noticed or recognised...other wise, you guys think like 'Oh!'..'Ah!'..'Uh?'..'Haha!' but at the back of your mind is like 'Oh Yeah?'

But I've witness guys need the ladies to be their pillar of strength in many ways. I'm NOT going to illustrate about this...I'm giving you face! so be quiet!

I've heard a man said this before.."She survived because she thinks like a Man!" or "Are you Man enough to do this?"...Ring a bell? Anyone? So whatever problems you have...one should be Man enough to face it! hahahahaha...for ALL Mankind!

I shouldn't have gone camping! I shouldn't have said it! Smile please!

Butterflies everywhere?

I cannot sit still already...I'm restless...don't want to sink myself in a quicksand of silly goofiness.

Early in the morning, I called my cousin, Sharifah Anoura. Need a diversion and some entertainment. 'Shopping?" she said. "Lets breakfast and see whats next". We had our breakfast at McDonald! Bought a donkey pillow... a 20cm x 20cm pillow with a Shrek's donkey miniature sown at the edge. I've been buying these Shrek's pillows collection since day one. I have one more collection to go. After that we head off to KLCC, just window shopping. Had a great time!

"Yuna!" received a text messaging from Riz. Yeah, just my name. I didn't reply but it startled me...again, I felt uneasy over this matter. Ring!ring! Ring! My phone rang which gave me a fright but thank god it was my mum who told me to be back by evening. A relative from Singapore will be visiting us in the evening.

I cooked Spagetti Bolognaise...somehow my dad's relative from Sentul and my chinese bro's family came visiting too. What a merry evening until "Yuna!" another text messaging from Riz. Not another SMS that I went upstairs to see if GG online unfortunately he wasn't. HELP! Another stomach upset...butterflies in my stomach! Ghee whiz! STOP!

Happy Fathers Day!

Hi Everyone!

Wishing you a Happy Fathers Day!

You guys are awesome!!!

Too many sacrifices involving man in this world

Being a leader, a father, a lover and standing in the front line

protecting the children and the ladies...

Guys will always be guys, they said....the freedoms has put SO much in your hands, your head and your shoulders and lead us to your sanctuary...your haven...your love....and your heart! Your goodwill...an ambassador between god and mankind....think about it will ya!

I love you!

Dad, dedicated this song for you...may I dance with you?

Butterflies in my stomach

There are butterflies in my stomach!

Been listening to Starlight at Cakapgold since dawn.

Brought me back to those days...I didn't understand back then but innocently translate those lyric for him ...but now I do.

As now that I'm in a fix and the coming week will be like expect the unexpectation....."Our hopes and expectation...black holes and revelation!"

Today, I'm not in the mood for whatever...I kept myself in my room lazying in my bed....thinking and thinking...then sleeping...woke up staring at the ceiling..listening to the 'Light and Easy' on the radio...toss and turn...felt the heartburn...hmmm I haven't had stomach indigestion for so long...but why now? Stressed? Online? No..! Not in the mood for that neither...perhaps later in the evening. I just want to spend a quiet time today..being silly lazy bum! I guess I'm just nervous thinking of Ronnie who will be coming to KL next week to visit his family and our rendevous....Yikes! What have I done? Poking the bee hives? Stepping on the lion's tail? Oh my god! There are butterflies in my stomach! I think I'm going to close my eyes and my mind for awhile...Hello? System shut down please?

On the road to a full recovery

I've been listening to Aaliyah: The One I Gave My Heart now and then...on and on and on and on...

Won't somebody tell me? Explain to me? I can't understand....tell..me....I'd appreciate!

I'm just preparing myself to face the one who once was my world, my only ONE and then, I shut the door to anyONE.

I just dance to the rythmn of my Final Fantasy(s) which help me to continue to go on whatever left in me. Learning to love myself, family, god and friends I trusted. Obviously I don't want to be hurt. I dare not even dream or thought of getting involves with any good men that comes by. Afraid? Yes. Doubt? Yes. Shy? yes. Still hanging on? No. Still thinking? Hmm..(???) Still hoping? No. Then what? AFRAID!! So much Afraid!

I enjoyed being who I am today like it doesn't matter anymore. As no one is going to hurt me but myself, right? Hmm...ya, it doesn't matter anymore...

But deep in me..I still feel the unrest...at times I cry alittle...though I put everything of that ONE behind. I'm not worrying anymore...I feel free but why is there still a moment of heavy-heart whenever I'm just alone?

Soon, we'll meet up after all these years...I want to hear from his side of story...but I've made my decision...is that my road to a full recovery?