It's all coming back to me

I was called to write ‘Something’ whenever Celine Dion’s ‘It’s all coming back to me’ start singing at my ‘Grooveshark’

I have this ‘longing’ feeling lingers but I don’t know exactly what it was. It brought me to the ‘Time Travel’ and whirled me back to the yester years and yester days…those wonderful moments….and it’s all coming back to me….

It’s raining cats and dogs at the moment, at this lonely hour and with this song in the air….what can you do but thinking of your dearest one…sweet sweet memories…and it’s all coming back to me...

“When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now”

I also thought of my late grandpa who have not visited in my dreams for so so long…and those days when he was everything to me but it’s all gone…and it’s all coming back to me….

I thought of my first independence and enjoyed that freedom…and no more nightmares…built my castle…and it’s all coming back to me…

And you, my dear…and it’s all coming back to me…..

Fill your days with good times and treat yourself as best possible and take every moment accounted for because you'll never know when 'It's all coming back to me' for you to ponders on, on an empty day ..

(live like you're dying by Lenka)

About a man and a girl

My friend, Anand, told me that ‘Only girls know what girls want and that Man is clueless about them’.

Hmmm…I think I’ve told him once before, I think, to any guy friends who were confused about their girl friends’ actions and attitude. It also happens to me too….(stop laughing k!) So I tried my best, rationally, from my point of view though they can always google any topics they want to know

I told him that mostly girls want attention…not too much but simple attention…n EVERYDAY! Hahaha…Guys you don’t have to give flowers or presents everyday to your lady love…save that for a rare or special occasion….ok? Just at the end of the day saying ‘I love you’ or ‘I miss you’ will mellow any girls’ heart. A peck on her cheek or a small kiss as soon as you greet her…is that too much to ask?

A girl would do anything for her beloved…small task and big task…the guys just don’t have to ask or say…she’ll do it out of love…willingly and sincerely. Little things do matter because she has put so much effort for that little world, so called A Man’s World.

And guys just don’t want to open their eyes to see the little things she do and open his mouth to say ‘I am aware and acknowledged it’, even a simple nod or gesture and smile or a hug…because “Honey, it is not the cozy lovey-dovey time” yet. When it comes to romance, the man will mellow and comply….

The way I see it, Man thinks straight and thinks what he wants most and gets what he want. Hmmm...I think it has to do with the male ego.

When I was confused about my man’s action, I searched about relationships at the internet.…seek understanding from some guy friends' opinions…on what Man thinks or want, trying to understand him, his love….that actually he truly love me (oh! How romantic! Blink!blink!blink!)

But oh come on! Must I throw a brick at his head every day? Or should he smack my butt every night? LOL!...oh how funny the way I’m looking at it now

( I love you, honey…I really do! Muah xoxoxo)

Ordinary boy

Whose house are you haunting tonight?

Just the other day I was so bored and login to my Yahoo Messenger and waited…..and waited…..and waited…and waited……Boy, friendship do change according with time…sigh! =_=

I have just finished with my Tribalwars, War Metal and Café world games…and it was 11:00pm, my beloved who is ocean away has been quiet…I guess he was tired who have been working from morning till dusk and finally succumb to his relaxing mode watching TV

I thought of my PS2 which I have left 3 years ago…dust settling on the console…and the games are history but I would love for some pack of action at the Dino Crisis 2 blasting some Dinosaurs at my PS1 but I was too lazy to look for that game…

I still haven’t made up my mind if I should get PSP or PS3. I’ll settle for one by this year, which should keep me busy and awfully busy ....hahahaha (lots of fantastic and awesome games! Blink! Blink! Blink!)

Man..! I cannot wait any more and close the YM window….I did drop a line at my friend who was eager to chat with me that afternoon and asked if I could online with him that night. He said, it has been awhile we haven’t chat.….this was what I got “Hey, there is a great movie on TV” and it went dead….
Have you ever had the FEELING of ‘I’ve just have been dumped’ or ‘I don’t care’ or ‘I’m not interesting anymore’ or ‘So what?’ or ‘A nothing at all’ or ‘Whatever’ or ‘I am not a box’?

(My phone ringing) My honey sent me a message “ Alo lov! Wat r u doin? There’s a gr8 muvi on tv 2nite...lets watch 2gether honey bun ”…Eyes rolling and sigh!
That’s it! Not this man! I’m going to get his attention because he IS my man and replied “OK honey, I’ll watch with you” (LOL!)

If you can’t win them, join them! (oh, No!)

But anyway, I am a ‘Whatever’ girl…so? WHATEVER!!!

Oh lately it’s so quiet……………………….zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Quiet life

All seems quiet. Those days have gone.
No more hectic days, balancing daily chores, work, surfing and playing games…even chat online.

Why?

It didn’t bothers anymore if no one drops by to say ‘Hi’
I just don’t know what to say or talk about…even to some good friends
Whatever happened to me? =_=

(mission>energy>rewards>experience>battle>stamina>tokens>kills>experience>victorious)

"Yunie, are you done (playing games) honey? Come to me love xoxoxoxo"
Now you know what had happened to me...hahahahahaha

Mode: Kerli

Everyday my head will drum with Kerli Koiv’s songs. I’m sure some of you will bounce to clueless, your temple frowned trying to connect to your brain library....’say what? Kerli? Who is she or he?’…duhhh!

Ah well, we have a fantastic electronic library right in front of our face named ‘Google’. You can get anything you need to know by just typing out whatever you desire to feed your hungry brain with knowledge....so here it is http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kerli Go ahead and digest it! :)

Feast your ears on this, ‘Love is Dead’ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdXvqMF-6vI&feature=fvst

It is almost 3:00pm and I looked at my phone, silent and quiet…hmmm misty in my eyes…I was thinking of the ‘Phone is Dead’ and I’m sure my honey is very busy at work unlike before but now he is ‘Dead Serious’ with some projects along some ‘Deadlines’ (Awww man!)

However, I’m not going to spoil my day with this ‘Whatever’ mood...hehehe because it is a ‘Beautiful Day’ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4S5kpgZEeg

Kerli's official site: http://www.kerlimusic.com/

Forever Love

I’m here!

Almost every day I thought of blogging like I used to be. It was fun and I have so many things to write to express what I thought and what I’m feeling. Yeah, it was utterly fun and I feel alive.

I remember Edward Cullen (Twilight) confessed to Bella Swan that he can read people’s mind except Bella. And he wondered why and what so special about that particular girl whom he was so much obsessed with.

I think ‘Love’ makes everything hay wired. You don’t know the reason why you are behaving that way and can’t think of any but that particular person. Your mind body and soul slaved by this obsession and you are not yourself anymore until you accepted the fate that you ARE in love with that particular person.

So once you are there, you left all behind your world and into a new world...a rebirth and somehow you see a bigger picture about your life in front of you. Amazing! Wonderful! Magical too  …A reason to start over new…and the reason is YOU! And the reason is YOU! (sang Hoobastank)

I was then into another phase to understand this new self being and devoted only to Love. It feeds on me and used up all my energy and my life somehow depends on this livelihood. Love is a vampire and my life system depends on this Love! Hahaha..Bella wants to be with Edward Cullen forever! But, he protected Bella from becoming one…she’ll never understand...WHY?

I do now... his sacrificial of undying love to ensure her ‘pristine’ love stay untouched and not wanting the beautiful Love to emulate and evolve into ugliness. ‘I bleed it out deeper deeper just to throw it way?’ echoed by Linkin Park…this message should hit your head and makes you wiser…LOL!

Hmmm..I’m still here and Bella, in her New Moon wants to be Forever Dawn with her Edward one day....Muahahaha

Epic Failure

Sleepless night…

Toss and turn and my hand grab my red and white Nokia 5700 XpressMusic and it lighted up brightly in the dark cold room. Reading back the messages he sent to me and my messages I sent to him…my mouth just glued tightly and tears just flows out slowly…then I went to the 'Miss Call' log, staring silly at the out dated miss call.

My ever favourite companion, the PC, plays a bigger role half of my life… “Oh hello! lets see what you can do for me this time?” I login the Facebook and played the War Metal mindlessly...just carry on with the mission and some battles. ....

Out of the blue, “Hi, do you like Naruto?”; the chat bubble pops out and I replied “ I watched Naruto but I am a Final Fantasy Fan”... I would love to chat with him longer especially when he said that FF8 was the most fun but I was in no mood at all....Epic Failure on chatting!
Later, I recalled the ‘Epic Failure’ photos posted in the FB which make me laughed...so I go looking for it but somehow it fizzles out....Epic Failure on 'Not Funny Anymore' Epic Failure's pictures ...

At the world 7 Tribalwar's Tribe Tatec forum, there was one proud comment on my partner's successful defend his village against our enemy tribe player....“Onvaukter's attempt on Ravager Prime 06 # (857|806) K88 village FAILED!”. Our Baron praised him with “Nice!! I got the reports. Epic fails on -WE- attack!” ....

Lastly I Googled the “Epic Failure’ dead in the night...

Almost 3:00am, this self motivated to sleep is an Epic Failure too. I dreaded myself to bed and another rerun whenever I touch my phone “Huh! Again, Epic Failure” I said to myself as I keep reading over and over our text messages and I couldn’t sleep still. Pressed ‘Image’ and search for some pictures…I remembered he once said “When did I sent you that pic? I can’t recall” Geez, Epic Failure again? I pulled up my comforter covering over my head, closed my teary eyes, grabbed my “Mr Incredible” pillow tightly to my chest and thought of the little kisses I planted that afternoon…zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Emotionally yours

“He said I’m very emotional”

He has the point there but when I feel like I’m falling into the bottomless pit and desperate to climb over, all I do is succumbs to negativity. I wonder if I choked him instead of myself…this sickness is killing me at times…geez!

Listening to the songs from my MP3…each song recollecting ‘my space’ and nostalgia, reminiscing some good times and bad times. I remember the fun, laughter and some crying times too…I was just having good times at the internet and also, I can’t sleep….geez!

Time changes everything and I can’t stop the speed. It keeps me spinning round and round like a wheel of fortune. If you look ahead, you have time to plan that push you forward and unlimited. On your right, your pace of today…the steps you take are accounted for…you are balancing the wheel. On your left, your emotion and real feelings and uncheck reality keep you from falling. If you look back, history is waving goodbyes, some regrets and some bestowed and some….are memories… yearning and wish for more...geez!

I am riding in a roller coaster and only god knows the minute I screamed deafening myself as the car goes down the steep slope and every turn, the cold air blasting in my face….when it goes up slowly, I was gasping for air and ‘No Air’ was drumming in my head…and tears drowning my blinking eyes…almost everyday…but why?..geez!

Nailed needled stapled stitched the “I love you” and “I am with you” at my temple because my heart is already carved poked cut chopped and bleeding “Forever yours”…emotionally well said….geez!

No Air

Ass in the name

I seldom jokes around….I really don’t know how to crack a joke spontaneously. I am not the social type person but who will sit in front of the computer playing games, surfing and communicating with friends if not working. Apart from that I would be in the kitchen, cooking up some quick, delicious and easy dishes at home...snap! snap! snap! ..some candid shots and mms-ing , showing off and let him ‘ooh I am already hungry, love’ (naughty me! Sniggering…hehehe)

I love to be naughty…hmmm..only to someone I am very close and love with. Perhaps, it is just to let off my steam that is pressuring my head and let my hair down once awhile. Zaza, my sister who lives in Malacca, she’s the only person whom I can let out my laughing gas naturally. We always have ‘A Topic’ to joke around and it is usually when we cook up something in the kitchen.

Z: Move your ass (as she was carrying the hot pot)
Y: Moving my beautiful ass (shaking my ass n blocking her way)
Z: I m ass-ing u (we already laughing n giggling)
Y: Ass-ing me to.?
Z: Ass if u don’t know..(what she meant)
Y: My ass is already hot! (we burst up laughing even louder)

And we ended up making jokes with any words that sound with ‘S’ and making fun of ‘Ass’

Y: Do u need my Ass-sistant?
Z: I m gladly u ass!

LOL!

nbtd~

It was such a boring day
With nothing better things to do….it makes me wonder and wander too

Tribalwars
That is the first thing and the last thing I do...almost everyday
Log into my accounts, minting gold coins, level up buildings, scout for barb villages, and coordinate attacks and whatever!
I had it all listed on ‘What to do today’
Done! Wuhoo!

Office matters
My assistant, Shaun, is on medical leave and not much I can do for today, just keep tabs on incoming registrations for reports
Yawning!

Dearie
He’s busy as a bee….oh! Really?
I log into yahoo today to catch up with Rinoa and ‘Look! Who is busy?’
Eyes rolling!

Forward
Read some personal mails and had a good laugh
Forward it to my loved ones and a couple of good friends
Chuckle! LOL!

All seems quiet now….
Feels like zzzzzz as nbtd~

Muse - Time Is Running Out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hxye7OiL6Gs
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh

you will suck the life out of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh

Thoughts

Woke up in the middle of the night…staring in the dark...my mind thinking …..

I read his last messages “ Nite2 lov..lov u ..muah xoxo”

We’ve been too busy and sometimes in between space there is ‘quiet’ and sometimes ‘blue’

I read back some sacred messages that I keep for my strength, an essence to move forward and holding on to it…tears slowly flows down when I miss him so

I reminiscing the hey-day time and good times and some dedication songs

Gazing and touching some photos…

I can’t sleep.....

Dedicated to the one I love

My hunger is not of food but sweet love

My thirst is not of water but fulfilling love

You gave me your heart and I gave mine

You gave me your love and I gave mine

I traced your face with my fingers

And kissed those loving eyes with my lips

I loved your hair when untouched

And those ‘hug me please’

When I captured it turn to 'space ball'

When placed it in my blog but none to see

Tell me what you see in me......

The time is in your hand

It places my strength