Loved

I want to spend as much time I have with my beloved. Ever since our confession we haven’t hit the break and constantly in touch with one another and it is like an endless journey…We no longer wants to be by ourselves but inside one another’s dream. I began to feel the beauty in ‘Love’ and want to give more and more. I couldn’t find the exact thing or being or word to show him the ‘Beauty’ I feel for him.

Many times he said “Don’t care about it. It is us that are matter. I love you very much” whenever I feel small or lesser person. He has so much to offer whereas mine is limited. Sometimes I feel sorry for him having me as his girl but he is so persistence, adamant, focuses, loving and sacrificial. I don’t want to change him with anyone else. I am loved. What more do I want? Just that I wish that I’d be there for him like forever….

Thus we created our own portal, running free in our world called Eden Prime; creating an atmosphere we longed for, breaking down the barrier and distance between us, giving all and showing all, the love we have for each other…

I hate the thought of his friends teasing him and under mining his credibility about his love interest. He protects and hides me from the people who don’t understand my well being. He never takes advantage of my kindness and my existence. I don’t know what he sees in me but I feel his existence and his love. I feel myself being envelope by his sincere love and he wants to give me something worth living for and I want to die for him…..

Love is worth living for!

His Tiny Dancer

Hello…I haven’t been coming here as often as I should. I have been busy..yeah, busy building my love nest! Hahahaha….

A few days ago, my friend, Fendi, chat with me. The last time we talked was that he found someone and most probably his soul mate, he said. He gave me her friendster’s profile. Hazlina is her name. I was happy for him and remembered those days when he had problems over his ex girlfriend, re assuring him that the right girl will come for him…just like Azizi. Fendi got married and now a husband to Hazlina.

I don’t know how to start and where to begin about my love life. From just a mere friend to mutual friends and then best friends and now, we are stuck to each other as lovers. WE, never though of falling in love but it did happened. Along the way, it grows unexpectedly or probably we spent too much time together and care for each other. We felt the pinch when we can’t be online and even more when he had to move away back to his home town. Both of us knew, it was ‘love’ that had developed during our friendship days. It was like a roller coaster ride. There was a high time and a low time. It was life and yet it was zombie. All this mix feelings engulf each other and yearn for more and our existence.

Now, I am more settled than before. I feel great! I feel loved! The best thing that ever happens to me was in love with him. He gave me freedom and everything or whatever a girl wants to be. I feel like a kite with a string bound to him. He let me fly higher to feel the life in me …to love him. In him, I am his ‘Tiny Dancer’ and forever his. He let me into his heart and pampered by his true love. I want to be there at all times..just holding his hands and rest my head on his shoulder ..Speechless over whelming by this passionate feeling and sealed it with a kiss….(Strumming my pain with his fingers...Singing my life with his words...Killing me softly with his song...Killing me softly with his song...Telling my whole life with his words...Killing me softly with his song...)

I love you, Tenko-san!

Where am I?

Ever since most of the W.E members were banned and later some accounts were deleted and lost a few trusted members, I am lost and alone. Though Tenko will always be by my side as my pillar of strength but that has not lifted my spirit in this game (Tribalwars). After tending to some necessities, I sit and wait. I played some new games like Travian, Samurai of Legend and Vampire...it just stop there with no enthusiasm in me. I tried…

I make myself busy going into Friendster, MySpace, Tagged, PerfSpot and update whatever to put back the fire in me but it didn’t ignite my worldliness. I am also saddens to see my playgrounds were left in the cold and untouched by the warm embrace by my dear ones. Was I thinking too much as he suggested? Perhaps…but it doesn’t make sense when a couple of minutes, his greetings was for somebody else instead. It hurts..ok? It hurts...a little brush of denial and some how I feel left out and alone. I surf into YouTube and Metacafe and whatever I could think of to push myself away from the zero degree spaceball. Geez...I am like a bush fire, ever ready to burn myself to make way for a new life. But, I have never forget myself that in my ‘Whatever’, I am Yunie who may be bed ridden one day…I wasn’t thinking too much but in reality it is a fact and I counter check every possibilities to raise my spirit or whatever is left….

So where am I?

McDonald's Prosperity Burger

McDonald started selling their " prosperity burger " again for a limited time only..And this year again ....The same old beef patty " spiced with black pepper sauce " and fresh onions....again...!!!!

But this time they have DOUBLE beef prosperity burger...double yummy!!

McDonald’s Prosperity Burger only comes once a year, during the Chinese New Year (hence the name Prosperity). So it may sound like that I am really looking forward to the Chinese New Year because of the burger, which is true.

Just yesterday my friend, Azizul, was talking about the prosperity burger. We both seem to like the same burgers..The Carls Junior’s, Burger King’s and McDonald’s Prosperity Burgers..ya, just that. We talked about Wendy’s too. Today, I got a flyer on McDonald’s Prosperity burgers and showed it to him. He was delighted and will make a date for the Prosperity burgers! Yummy! Again he passed by and saw me STILL looking through the flyer and was laughing at me “Tak habis-habis lagi?” (Still hasn’t finished going through it?)...actually I was reading a fine print stating “Beef Prosperity Burger is not available in Sarawak” ...I was thinking of my dearie who won't get to enjoy the burger...

But no matter what..I LOVE whoopers! (Burger King) hahaha...

Switchfoot - Learning to Breathe

I love to wake up reading messages from a loved one ^__^
with this song in the air....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJUtQYYLSPU

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

these abundant skies, yeah
abundant skies, yeah

So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I say I love You
This is the way that I say I'm Yours
This is the way, this is the way

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you do?

( Aifailoffofyufusofovafaryfymachfach!)

A Biohazard game: I Love You

There was a game, a biohazard ‘I love You' game. One of people's choice favourite and hostile game of all time. Have you heard of this game? OK, let me tell you what had happened ;)

I haven’t been in this game for so long. I wasn’t interested in this ‘I Love You’ anyway. I have indirectly been ushered to this game but I played plain dumb and will ignore any invitations which will lead me to this. However, I got this visiting from a guy, a year ago and I don’t mind being visited by him and I told him I don’t play ‘I Love You’ game. “Me too” he said and we became friends…we played any games ^_^. Then somehow we did play it for we have known each other and there is nothing to be afraid of or doubt anyway. It was meant for fun.

Until one day, I got confused. Geez…what did happen? Shall I surrender and tell him I don’t want to play anymore? It is very uncanny of me to just give up for I am a fighter and even if the character dies, I play it again and again until I scores! And yes, I raised the ‘White Flag’ (reminds me of Dido). “Hey, you won in the ‘I Love You’ game and it doesn’t matter anymore” He was relieved. Next he showed the prizes he got from that game and willing to share it with me. It was our efforts anyway and he wanted me to have it too. I was happy and how thoughtful of him ^_^.

“Yuna, in ‘I Love You’ game he forgot to say the magic word! And that means he didn’t win that war game and you have actually supposed not to surrender that soon” said my friend who have been playing this game like a pro. I got restless and tried not to bother because anyway we have called it even….I Think. Until, “Excuse me, I want to know did I do the right thing?” I asked my friend and somehow my doubts fall in. “IF you want, I can help you…actually it doesn’t work that way” he continues. My world was spinning and spiraling down but I don’t need his help. I know how to deal with it…it is getting more personal now.

“Yuna, I have placed the play cards to your opponent. Did you get that magic word?” my friend sms-ed that evening while I was in the shower. I was like “AAARRRGGGHHH!!”. I know he meant well but I don’t need anyone to baby sit my ‘I Love You’ accounts.

That night, the war game started. It was rather serious this time and I want to end this war, PERIOD! We didn’t choose the battle ground but my friend initiated it. He almost lost in the game. I drop the bomb into the rabbit hole. He knew, it was not my style dropping the bomb that way. A daredevil's move shall I say. He knew what’s in my head that night and have to play his cards right. He was furious with my friend who intervent and placed doubts and nonsense in his girl’s mind. He wants her back and luckily he drew the right card of “You know I love you too”.

“Yuna, actually he’s supposed to throw in two cards of ‘I love you’ and ‘Will you be my girl’ ?” my friend explained. “Oh, shut up will you! I don’t want to play any more stupid ‘I Love You’ war game” Besides I have already settled with him with “No more doubts…no more doubts!”

Phew!
Now I am playing other games like “Behind the close door”, “Headaches Medicare”, “Secrets” and “Mind your own business” . Oh yes, I am also playing the second version of “I Love You”, the “I Love you very much” hahahahaha…

U should try ^__^

I am alright dearie...

It has been so many days I was restless…thinking too much of my life. At first, I thought I’d be ok that I am able to control my emotions. But ever since he can’t online I feel the pain in me…it bothers me so. Putting my concentration on Tribalwars , a diversion, not to think so much of the missing days we have. I guess he felt the same too…his text messaging beginning to reveal his feelings for he is not the kind of person who would just say out loud. I hold on to it and read over and over and over and over again. Whenever I missed him, I read it over and over again. He has touched my heart and melted the iron ore covering it.

The night he told me that he was going home the next day, I was longing for him…crying silently myself to sleep. He has been away too long and I too want him back to where he belong and fix our missing puzzle from where we left.

I’ll be alright, I have him. Ever since I let him into my dream domain, The Plain, I knew it wasn’t just an empty talk and picnic we had back then…it was a gesture to spend together at all times. The dream we share was our only visiting, a time machine, where we run free and express ourselves…

At Eden Prime, counting shooting stars? The night glowed in romantic purple with two moons raised high above. It wasn’t about Burger King and whoopers for supper too. It was just the two of us moonlighting together until we fall asleep…don’t want to let go until the sun greet us and take our dream away …

I am here now…I am calm…I am alright!

Balancing on a wire

I don’t know where we stand but we have mutual feelings and understanding. Once again my life was not like before. We are so far and yet so close. It hurts so much so that I cannot take it anymore. I feel like running away as far as I could and barf out whatever feelings that is hurting me inside. All those words he gave me …only he knew…or was I wrong? The further we are the closer we gets…confused and in dilemma...

We care so much and respect our differences…I was afraid if it is too much, I cannot handle it, I may end up in much worst situation of my life and that my heart was touched for the wrong reason and I can never play the games again…ever!

Today, I cannot withhold anymore and told him so….for I seek the calmness in me, to take away the pain and confusion…I rest my case and I am balancing on a wire...just dont catch me when I fall

Miss you nights

Too tired to sleep, too weary to think, too exhausted to stay another hour…I just want to relax for a while and thought about ….......I used to spend my midnight hour chatting with him…yeah, about anything! Most of the time we end up with our making-up stories, traveling near and far, continuing our rendezvous in another portal, our dream world….hahaha just having fun our ways. I miss our talks and stories….

“Lets go to Rome, we meet at the coliseums” he sms-ed. “Tell me about it, I’ll listen to your war story with awe!” I just love to hear him explaining in details of any war epics like a historian telling me what weapons they had, how many they were, war formation and strategies, right down to the garments, also about the reasons behind the winning and losing. I know some wars but unlike him, he tore it right down in the middle and spread out and turn it into a world map history.

But with text messaging, we just let our imagination run free. “Ok, c ya!” short and sweet but no frills. When he said ‘Miss u dearie’ I guess we both miss our usual good-night-cap to seal it with our usual bedtime stories.

However, we finally rest to sleep with a smile on our face, thinking of nothing else but the fun we just had a few minutes ago with our text messaging game…ending the day…full stop…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gv4JnFClVmo

Lost

It is strange tonight…all quiet…and I am alone..
The oneness and loneliness brought me back to where I was before …totally one and independent and longing for no one…my fingers were not tapping on the key boards but the play station joystick. My eyes glued on the TV Screen absorbed into the characters I played in a game.

But now, my heart felt different, I feel the tinge of pain deep in my heart like a long needle slowly poked through it and I want to cry for no apparent reason. And I feel strange tonight like I am splitting into two. ‘Lost Butterfly’ sang by Rurutia was in the air gives an impact to the surrounding…I am unguard…I am without wings…I am mute…I am blind…I am deaf…I am soulless…I am without dream…I am Vaccum..I am nothing…I am LOST! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWmcUQqoakM

W.E rank 25!

Just a show off!

W.E is now rank 25 in world 7 of Tribalwars! YEAH!!!

Thanks to all members...keep up with your good work...

Quiet Phase

I am very happy that W.E gets going and marching up. I have no complaints since then. Members are doing their best maintaining a neutral tribe concept and for the first time I feel so relax managing W.E in Tribalwars. There is a lot more to learn about this game where you find rivals, friends and foe…In fact, perhaps you find your partner too who is willing to make your goals happening in your tribe and believing in you. Indirectly, it is a virtual society, a community, your own kingdom and civilization.

This week, is a quiet week to me. There will be a big change in my daily activity nearing to the middle of November. I have to adjust myself to whatever circumstances to keep me busy after Tenko left to Bintulu, his home town in Sarawak. Though he said that he’ll be in touch whenever he can, things will be different from then on….I know dear…

I’ll try to spend more time with my favourite guy playing games, exchanging songs, music and any news or info. I think by now, we are more at ease since the day I told him what is in my heart, my mind and my selfness. We just enjoy and share our mutual friendship and perhaps maybe envy to some.

Tenko-san you are the BEST!
Anymore challenging games? Hahahaha..I guess by now you know how far and serious I am when I am in a game…A bit ‘ kiasu ’ you may say for I always want to have the best personal result.
Duke Nukem once said “Come get SOME!” (raining bullets!)
Oh yes, got to horned my shooting skills once again..in Team Fortress 2? (adeii..I tunggu nih!!!!!!)

I am contented! XOXOXOXO

Open Arms by Mariah Carey

Dedicate this song to Dearie :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ye8oc98qfHk

W.E Forever!

Tribalwars: World 7

I am dedicating this song to the tribe W.E and a tribute to all loyal members who brought W.E back to live. Tenko and I are honored and would be remembering that to date is the birth of our tribe Yunie aka W.E.

God bless you all!

W.E ..Keep holding on..I won't give in!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jFaAcRWibY

With YOU by my side I'll fight and defend!

Go stealth

I was a bit taken when he was screaming from the other end like “Damn! You wasted my time!”...thats what I felt. Confusion set in or was I too much? I felt guilty of course and I thought about our nuts, chasing round the bush, exchanging words and our findings trying to find a solution over a non important matter which we thought it was from the beginning…(oh dear!). I went into ‘vacuum’ and isolate myself. I don’t want to think further more but ‘Sorry..sorry..sorry..’

A friend was wondering if I am ok since I was quiet and didn’t say much. I have been receiving a number of negative energies and this small one just added to my blue mood. Ever since ‘I will be off during your General Assembly” My lips were tighten and tears envelope my eyes. I don’t want to show my sorrow and I don’t want to spoil whatever left we had. Days are numbered. For a while I was staring blindly and couldn’t think until he asked “What were you doing?” that brought me back to just play along and have a good chat till morning after. “Don’t make any promises” I once told him for I hate promises. They are either to be kept or broken. I rather take my days run freely and no empty promises.

Sometimes I thought of good friends I have and had. I just wish I could start all over again and maintain the friendship like the beginning of our acquaintance. Those days were more fun and full of laughter. I think they probably agreed.

Windows were wide open and now shutters have set up and soon the blind will completely close and there is only one door...and go stealth