Seize the Day

Year 2008 is just around the corner...I'm sure majority people are looking forward for the new year party bash. The count down will be aired on TV from one city to one city, country by country. 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1! HAPPY NEW YEAR! Everyone on the street and at home cheering up..and there will be awesome fireworks at most major cities in the world. Hmmm....if I were a cosmonaut...I wonder.. what do I see on the eve of new year's celebration from space?

I feel the wind of change is blowing in my face. Yes, I am moving forward but approaching a different angle...This is not about 2008 resolution..it is about some plans I have laid out for the year 2008. Wish me luck k!

To some pit stops I make this year especially;

1. GG...thank you for letting me into your world. You changed me a lot. From zero to...no..I'm not a hero...I learn a lot from you. Love working with you. I remembered the first time we got to know each other..it all started with Cakapgold and our story line was ..'the moral of the story..". I wish you all the best in your future undertakings.

2. Stumplin...my guru..hahaha about blogging la..otherwise, Yuna Sphere does not exist! Hey, where have you been la...I thank you soooo muchy! I hope you are doing fine brother! Take care!

3. Metharox...my first friend on online business thingy...you are my online business advisor! hahahaha....don't laugh! It was not your fault but mine. I didn't do as you have advised. But you are an honest person...aisey..where have you been my friend?

4. Drexar...Cakapgold's FF 'Cloud'. Eeee...you are so hot! You are the only person at Cakapgold with FF in your head. Thanks for those FF songs and FF previews at Cakapgold MTV. Yeah! FF Rules!

5. Nur...the only girl whom I have fun getting to know with. A strong willed and gutsy lady. We share some secrets..a girl to girl talk. Thanks for being there during my confusion time. Hope you and your family are fine and all the best!

6. Salihin...for a guy who is a bit pushy...I really underestimate you. You are ok my friend. Looks like now, you are more confident in your undertakings...and happy 'awek-ing' hahahaha...May W.E. be with you! (TW la...) hahahaha...kelakar!

7. Anand...we 'clicked' from the first day we got to know each other. My very first best friend buddy from Mybloglog. You are sooooo 'baik nyer!' ( nice la..). What you said make sense. Thanks for bringing my senses back and thank you for lending me your shoulder to cry on. TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..TQ..Love u..love u..love u..love u..love u..Hey! I am leaving some love for Mothi too..she's a pal! You are a very lucky person, Anand!

[p.s. Mothi, he is the best guy la...take good care of him..and you too...hmm..don't leave him la! : ) ]

8. Fareeq Yong...my newest online friend. We share of the same interest..that's the fun part...yes, I love to play war games...there is a story behind all these hehehe...too bad I didn't get to know you sooner. It could be a different battlefield..but you are so much of neo nazi and I was the american 'Medal of Honor' hahahaha...it could be fun to fight! fight! fight!

And last but not least, to my favourite guys! I love them so muchy! I could just hug them if I could...they bring me joy when I am in pain. A 'happening' lots! So much so...I gave and gave and gave...we share so much in 'whatever'! They make me laugh right from the very beginning of our friendship...something I cannot explain. "Hey! you got the best of me la..!"

1. Naqi - Mr Kamen Rider! A strong headed person but a very kind hearted guy. An individuality! To be the first of anything! To get the best of whatever! An attention grabber. A supporter. Understanding. Energetic. Comical. Funny. Happy. In short..he is the sun!

(p.s. Aini, you are a very lucky gal! Let the sunshine set on you!)

2. Tenko - Mr Nice guy! Hmm...mysterious (to me, now no more huhuhu). Cold blooded and hot blooded animal (what? hahahaha..). Romantic in his own way ( I think someone don't agree and is laughing already..hahahaha..ceh!). Understanding. An advisor. A Gamer. The 'General'. My guitar man aka Steve Vai. Modest. Smarty pants. Padawan chef. Parit Raja's Sleeping Beauty. The coolest guy on the planet! In short ..he is the moon.

(p.s. have you ever get caught on a moon beam? not on this planet! you have to enter his time zone)

You guys really rock! I really have good time with you. Lets rock the house! Especially on Tribalwars! May W.E. be with you.

Dedicated to all; http://youtube.com/watch?v=ss6pepd3XuY

Thanks to all!

No regrets

Away from home...somewhere ...far away...

I opened my eyes...staring at the sea...the waves...the sound of the ocean... the soft glow of the morning dusk greets me...so calm. Somehow I thought of things I went through..my laughter, my happiness, my sorrow, my sorriness and my peace. I've been thinking and thinking..a lot! so much so I want to leave behind the scar that runs deep in me. I keep holding on..but oh come on..everyone knows..if a person care so much, he/she just don't disappear like that. They won't even make you sad or cry.....so? (you already got your answer, my lady)

"History repeats itself" that's what I told him. The fear in me was so great, it pulls me under...no matter how much he tried to convince that things would be different this time. Then, there was this http://youtube.com/watch?v=ePyRrb2-fzs . My eyes fixed! I listened to it. Is it too late to apologize? ( I let you think about it this time)

Then I remembered, Ocean love, http://youtube.com/watch?v=w6k-DqdDNnA I was more at ease...I close my eyes and listen to the waves..tears slowly flow down my cheeks...my protection..my visions...all in my head...trying to reach out whatever...that is close enough..my ocean size love...(leaving behind my foot prints in the sand...)

No regrets...http://youtube.com/watch?v=JQpMksYNXtg So I softly slip away...

Burning midnight oil

I stayed up almost everynight. I usually spend my time at Tribalwars. To those who are familiar with this MMORPG online game may be wondering ...why on earth Yuna is spending so much time there when she can set and just leave. Well..I am not alone. At times I discuss with the General and also other members that need my help and advises. I have my missions and strategies and plan to keep it that way. Almost everyone put their effort to make our Tribe among the best and the giants. Beside, that is my fun time!

And of course, been spending some time chatting with my favourite guy until dawn. Never once a boring hour. "Are you sleepy?" I'd ask if it pass 4:00 am. We could go on and on and on. "Yuna, it is already 5:30am la.." he told me today...My goodness..time flies! I wished it was off day today so that I could catch my sleep. Yet..we still continued to stretch a few more minutes before saying "Good morning and sweet dreams"

We usually close the chapter of our day with our Final Fantasy play

Me: Ok, I'll be seeing you in a short while. You left your crow bar the other day (Half-life)

Him: Don't forget to bring your gun slinger (FF X-2). I'm using my silver baller (Hitman)

Me: The zombies could recognise you from far. Your baldness shine....wear a wig!

Him: I don't need a wig. I got a barcode to show-off! You better watch out when I go berzerk and trigger happy

Me: You think I don't have a cool move?

Him: Also, make sure you don't friendly fire me!

Me: Though Nemises (Resident Evil 3) is bald but you are much better looking! hahaha..

(so I won't be shooting you)

Oh man...we could go on playing like this ..but somewhere along the line..we know we must stop to rest....and continue our next episode...our next chat...whatever and whenever! :D

Use your imagination

I dreaded myself to the kitchen today. Didn't know what to cook. What's the menu? I took out a pomfret fish and decided a simple dish would do. While waiting the fish to defrost, I defrost myself..hahahaha...meaning, I decided to take a nap. Imagined I was shopping at Midvalley and soon I was Zzzzzz....

Again, imagining I had my own TV show on 'Cooking made Simple'. Giving some cooking skills and tips. I was guiding and explaining huhuhuhuhu....(Hey! there was a camera in front of me! and I was like Martha Steward) Geez! give me a break! Anyway, my imagination kept me going and moving. Thus my time in the kitchen was not dreaded one after all. :D

Back in my room, I was thinking about my blogs. I haven't been touching for awhile. I somehow remembered that morning he was telling me about those days he played for his band "Red Letter Day'. They played 'Reptilia' (The Strokes), his favourite song. Then I wrote " Tell us a story I know you're not boring". We laughed. It was wee hours in the morning and there was never a boring hour that kept us going on and on. So I went to YouTube and searched for 'Reptilia'. No..I wasn't looking at cute Julian..I was looking at those fingers strumming the guitar. Makes me to imagine, him playing his Ibanez for the Red Letter Day. I listen carefully at all the notes and strokes he had to strummed. Waaa...that was cool...Take a lookie!http://youtube.com/watch?v=RM2Ssne97ek .

Yeah..use your imagination! It keeps you going day after day! :D

Misheard lyrics

I was about to call in and I thought I give him a goodnight song from YouTube. It has been awhile we haven't exchange dedication songs. "Hey, what are you up to?" he asked when there was no respond from me. I just wanted to surprise him and didn't want him to know. "Ow, I am at YouTube..I forgot the name of the band I'm looking for". I was looking for 'Helena' by My Chemical Romance with FF video clip in it but I came across this "Hey, take a lookie!" http://youtube.com/watch?v=yy7uyxDNNt0 . Here is another one http://youtube.com/watch?v=1SUseESkinc We were LOL!!Hahahahaha...

Well..just for your enjoyment...a tribute to My Chemical Romance on misheard lyrics.
(FYI, MCR will be perfoming in Kuala Lumpur, 9 December 2007...oh hello..Gerard Way...you're so HOT! Love you!)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ysZRb0uyQ4w

http://youtube.com/watch?v=CAj4uVATq_s

http://youtube.com/watch?v=F_A9dqDH_6g

http://youtube.com/watch?v=kqYGM3X5rCk

Hahahahaha....My Chemical Romance! You ROCK!

(Oh, excuse me...I forgot about this at the end of the night, http://youtube.com/watch?v=95t6XH2o49M Goodnight!)

Cool dude

I am a very patient person. I keep my cool though my hair is on fire...hahahaha. I'm able to put on a straight face pretending it doesn't hurt. But once it reach the limit, I feel like running as far as I could. Like Tidus in FF10..disappear in thin air..non existence.

My good friend advised me to just ignore any unpleasant situation and put on a smile. About him, hmm...he is the coolest person that I know. Cooler than me. " It is not about 'I-don't give-a-damn' but 'I-don't-want-your-shit' thingy. He said; "Pretend like nothing happened and treat them as usual. If they still continue, just let them be and put on a smile."

So I am learning from him...I want to break free and thus no one will question my integrity and my sincerity. Then he said; "Hmm.. yaa..but please..don't la...be yourself but if you can forget it, it's ok la..but don't keep it in your heart". There are memories best left to forget, so you can move on. There are words best left unsaid, nobody is hurt. There are things best left untouched, you leave in peace. There are dreams best not no one knew, so you can dream on and reach your goals.....

(All the things you said... running through my head...I can try to pretend, I can try to forget but it's driving me mad, going out of my head http://youtube.com/watch?v=YKt6wZwW050 )

Dream to sleep

"Say Hi to Yuna k" he said before we bid goodnight. Hahahaha...don't get confused. I have a lullaby pillow which is round, one side is blue and other is green. It is named after Yuna, the female protagonist in both Final Fantasy X and Final Fantasy X-2 games who also consequently has heterochromatic irises: one blue and one green. Cute idea isn't it? He was surprised when he got to know about it. "You are too much!" he added.

Before that, we were discussing about dreams. "Do you usually have a bad or good dream?" he asked. "Hmm..good one!" for I usually think of good things before putting myself to sleep. He said he hasn't been dreaming for such a long time and if it does, it is usually a bad dream. A frightening one. "Lets not talk about this will ya!". Yeah..I guess it is kind of spooky if one is alone and away from home at such late hour. Best not to think about eerie atmosphere. "OK, lets talk about good things before we bid goodnight". So we jokes for a while.

To which;

Y: So think about nice things, what you like to do in your dream?

Him: How about killing zombies?

Y: Really? You need my help?

Him: Yeah! OK! I see you there.

Y: I'll be bringing my shotgun and machine gun

Him: Hey! I want the shotgun. You take the Uzi

Y: No way..why can't u bring the bazooka..

Him: ok ok I'll bring along my machete and knife...

Bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..bla..

Almost every night, "I'll meet you there thingy" and "Fight! Fight! Fight!"

Last night I SMS-ed "Agent 47 is coming with us, so goodnight!" :D

Not in the mood

Typed 'whatever' in the YouTube search box. Not in the mood actually. Just passing my night time until I think of something...an idea. I go online a couple of times in a day just to check on Tribalwars. Yes, our tribe is doing fairly well indeed. Our next target is, rank 100 in World 7. Hahahaha..Tenko love the idea though we have a long way to go. "Whatever k..Whatever!" :D http://youtube.com/watch?v=6tuPBrSl9Nw

Somehow I felt like we are one big family in World 7. Discussing strategies, things we need to do to level up and seeking advises from the peers. And sometimes, I think we are nuts! Obviously we are still at the infant stage on the battle ground but hey! we met our missions. Though there is no short cuts to be the best in Tribalwars. "We are out numbered among the giants!" Tenko once said "They are more organised compare with us" But I never gave up! I once fought till the last drop with the 3 giants who conquered my fort. There goes my Balamb Garden...she's my precious and I have never turned my back, not even once.

So besides posting my blog, checking the forum, Tribalwars, surfing, chatting and whatever...I am still wondering, what other fun that are offered on the Internet? Perhaps I'm not in the mood today...Oh man....(sorry guys!) :p http://youtube.com/watch?v=r0D9m4TecCA

Catching up

Y: What? You want that recipe via SMS?

T: Why not?

Y: There goes our credits la..

T: That's ok. I have a lot more credits

Ever since Sunday, Tenko and I have been SMS-ing each other. Yeah..on some recipes. For 3 days..Beep-beep-beep-beep. And so was his best friend too, Naqi, who SMS occasionally..."Yuna, I have arrived bla bla bla" ..."Yuna, I saw some action figures at the store bla bla bla"..."Yuna, how is my fort at Tribalwars? bla bla bla"...."Yuna, pls let the Sleeping Beauty knows about the Aliens vs Predators 2 bla bla bla" BUT I love them so muchy!

Last night, after practising with my Guitar Hero 2, I was with Tenko. It has been awhile we didn't chat since his friend came over. We just SMS. Fumbling over letters in which I don't think I can match up with his text messaging speed. "Naqi is SMS-ing me" I told him. "What did he say" Tenko asked. And so, on one hand was IM and on the other was SMS. Great isn't it. "Hey, Tenko-san we chatted on a wrong day. I have work tomorrow la bla.bla..bla.." hahahaha and STILL continuing. My goodness!The topic was getting interesting when he"Hmmm..I want to show you something"...http://youtube.com/watch?v=AJ39bOOR3fk .It was about Assassins Creed and then it was about the Call of Duty http://youtube.com/watch?v=2JC3UMJ2It4C3UMJ2It4 ...on and on and on..we could go on until dawn. Temptation! Temptation! What is best friend for anyway, keeping him company when needed. But because I'm working the next day, I forced myself to, "I really have to ZZzzZZzzZZ dear". We joked about 'Bobok' (putting to sleep) and 'Bantal Bucuk' (lullaby pillow) for awhile. Just a few laughs to put a smile as you sleep! Huuaah! (yawning)

Good morning and Sweet dream!

December is coming!

You want to see my Organiser?

I can't do without my organiser. I have set dates and in December, as usual, the busiest month of all. No..not my office work but personal matters and functions. No..no..I'm not celebrating Christmas neither. Hmm..time flies ya! Some people may not like it. It reminds them ageing away but not me. I'd be saying "Hey! my car instalments have reduced la.." Not many people knows that I'm car crazy too except Naqi; "Yuna, take a look at this beauty! She's a sport and cute!".

Anyway, there will be 2 family gatherings. On 8 December, our family's thanksgiving at home and 22 until 24 December, Al Qadri, Al Aidid, Al Habshi and Al Whatever (can't remember hahahaha...) as usual, a big gathering at Port Dickson. And who do you think will single handed organising these ....yeah! smart ass Yuna! Actually I didn't volunteer to be the head of these but they all know...Yuna is da gal (with imaginary weapons by her sides as in Duke Nukem, Medal of Honor, Quake, Resident Evils, Final Fantasy..bla..bla..bla..) will shoot the target! Laying out the menus, things-to-do list, delegate works and duties. Tenko has already named me as Chief Chef. Hey! This is NOT a glamorous job. I'd be managing it on those days and in the end I'll be dead tired! Then there is Aidil Adha on 20 December. My mum will go goo-goo-gaa-gaa if I'm not around to look into these. I was down with chicken-pox at one time, my mum, grandma and my sister were at wits on things to do...heheheheh but whatever!

31 December! My quiet time...I need a good rest to ponder on. No..I don't need a new resolution. Just a vision in my head for the next year's targets...on what I want, what I should do, how can I achieved it and how far can I go...(Hello, Doc! do you think I can run more miles?). I usually spend this special day at my own apartment in Kinrara...away from everything and everyone...solitude..and watch fireworks at night from here where everyone will be celebrating a new year. So much so of peace and quiet!

Yuna's Calm

Dedicated this song to the people who cares of my well being. I thank you so much during my trying times to understand what friendship means. I love you all. My love is just not ocean size love but ocean deep too. And I care....muah! muah! muah!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=unRIcvEzVwg

Lyric:
I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between needs a retention

I see you right in front of me as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry anymore
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection

I see it right in front of me
A vision in my head
And I know this is as real as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

You make no sound but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends
Like the sea
Like you for me

And it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

Whatever that is

If I like something or someone..I go for it. To the extend, 'Please do not question my sincerity' because I am. In return, I just want to have good time and good friends. That's all.

And I like to share..all the goodness if I could... about the world I lived in. Giving advises the best possible or logical. Reaching out the needy, giving ideas, moral supports, all ears ...hish! Whatever that is. Is that too much? All I know, I can't sit still...I need to do something..occupying the 'void' or 'vacuum'...maybe I'm hyper in terms of mentality but not physically. Yes, I need 'something' to keep myself busy.

If I am at 'on going' status and of suddenly I encounter a 'stop'. I'm like the ant colony..I'd panic and 'Hey! what happened to my trail?' When in confusion, I felt like out of normality,I withdrawn. I usually blame myself and then wondered if I over do it. Too friendly? Too nice? Too good to be true? Too whatever that is.

Sometimes..I think, at the beginning..it will be just fine...and then 'wow, it's great'...next 'you are the best'...then hanging on till you have nothing to say..or maybe 'too much of whatever'...ending in 'silent'. Some say..'give space and face'. I then will usually just 'wait and see'..I'd say the world is harsh and foreign to me because 'Too nice is a taboo'. Whatever that is.

In this world, saying 'I am sorry' is the hardest thing to do. People usually just turn around and run off without saying goodbye. The hottest thing can be the coldest thing. The future will turn into a past and it happens so fast you didn't have the time to think twice. Respect...what respect? In this vast world..either you live or you die...survival ratio 1:100. You survive alone or being alone. Selfishness is just an act of tolerance. A will to live in an unkind world...like a rose with its torn. Like an Edelweiss in winter time. Like whatever that is.....

Your hard work will end to waste, unrecognised, unappreciated...whatever that is

(Oh Balthier..I heard you and Fran are off to somewhere..No-where-land? I've got nothing here for me...may I take the jump seat? bla..bla..bla..bla..whatever there is)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=8bGp7LCRTlM

Hello..This is Ah Moy??

As usual, I log on to Tribalwars every morning at work. I am expecting an unwelcome guest anyway who keep on barging in everyday. Oh brother! The best I can do is to make use of my resources to upgrade the wall and recruit more armies just 10 minutes before the battle begins. And then…"Hey! What happen?" a statement, something like “not able to find the server” and later I was informed that the internet link is down due to no electricity and massive renovation work at the annex building where our Modems and Firewall are located. Oh brother! I sent SMS to Naqi….”No reply”. He must be sleeping as we were up till 2:30am. “Must I or must I not?” I wondered. I wanted to SMS Tenko but I remember he told me the previous day he had ran out of credit. Hmm…another blunder!

So by-hook-or-by-crook, I had to call Naqi. I was right! He was sleeping and I felt guilty for having to wake him up just for Tribalwars (Hey, sorry about that!) “Hello Naqi, this is Yuna. Sorry to disturb you but I need your help urgently..bla..bla..bla…bla…” The next thing we text each other until things been taken care of. Phew! Thank you Naqi! Later on, beep-beep-beep-beep: “Huhuhu..I was taken by surprise when I heard a chinese girl talking to me” Naqi text. I was LOL when I read that, I was not surprise anyway. “I sounded so Chinese meh? Maybe that’s the reason they don’t believe that I am Malay” I replied but whatever! Hahahahaha….

I just can’t wait to get home today and be online. I need to level up the Balamb Garden’s wall, pronto! It is crucial if I want to save my fort in this war. Oh man…!

“Thanks, Naqi! You’re a pal! You are too nice, too sweet like my Hiro Mizushima. Willingly to help, to jokes, and to keep me company during my trying times. And you are full of surprises too! Hahahaha…can’t imagine that you wanted me to view Cloud-san this morning! Yes! I was jealous! Yes! I was awed! But I was speechless because I was laughing at the way you did your stint! You have funny bones in you! LOL !!!”

Hiro Mizushima

"Who's that?" I asked. My eyes sparkled as Naqi put up a new picture on his avatar. "His name is Hiro Mizushima" said Naqi last week and ever since then, I have been secretly eyeing on him. Last night I couldn't keep quiet anymore. "What was his name once again?". Naqi knew it! "It's your sweetheart's picture ha!!" as he laughed. "Damn it! Xposed!" I whispered.

Last night, besides Naqi's birthday talk, Kamen Rider's war and Tribalwars, it was all about Hiro. He was eager to tell me from A to Z about him. Gave me some pictures too. "Hey, what are you doing?" as I piped down. "Hahaha..if I like 'something' I dig! I am surfing about him". Naqi, he was the most happiest guy last night! "Yuna! I gotcha! Kamen Rider Wins!" He has been trying to divert my heart, my head and my attention to love Kamen Rider since day one. "No way! I did told you that Hiro looks like Tidus if only he was blond!" But we both knew No-way-jose Hiro would be blond.

"Aarrrgh! Naqi did you see the part where he flipped the newspaper?" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKiTfuLmbPk&feature=related

I love that part, his smile was sooo swweeettt. "Hiro! I love you!!" and here is about my new boyfriend, Hiro Mizushima aka Tendou Shoji aka Kamen Rider Kabuto http://bestuff.com/stuff/mizushima-hiro

"I'm going to write about him in my blog" I told Naqi. "Don't forget to mentioned that I am the one who have introduced you to him ok?" said Naqi. Yeah Naqi, of course la...uuuuu..aaaaa....lovey-dovey...~~

The Chosen one

It started on the 12th November and snowballing from day to day, one attack after another, without fail, everyday ...battering Balamb Garden. I am so mad! mad! mad!

I thought I won't get affected emotionally when playing Tribalwars, after all it is just an electronic game on the PC screen. I was so angry the day when Naqi's village was attacked twice by the same tribe. I feel sad when I can't help to send a support to his village. So we plot. Revenge! We said "Kill like Hell! Shinea! shinea! shinea!" It was race against time to recruit more troops for the purpose. Our leader, Tenko on the other hand was pretty cool about it. He notify our intention but is fixed with his mission and vision, his determination on broadening his empire...yes sirree..he is good at strategy game. I tried to think like he thinks but I think...naw..I am not a natural born leader but I have not learn to give up. My will is strong as ever and my ways of over coming whatever!

Tonight, I feel 'emptiness'. After the 5th wave of being attacked I have to think and act fast. I was on my own. Naqi and Tenko had to put on hold with TW as they are at wars with their final exams this week...Oh brother! I was left with Mr Smart Alex, Slipboyz, who come and go like a hurricane leaving bits of knowledge here and there. "Yuna, just concentrate with Fenrir" Salihin advised. I've been mimicking Salihin's formula, adjusting with the Slipboyz's puzzles and Naqi's hot blooded vengeance and to be cool like Tenko. Oh yeah? "To be or not to be that is the question" from William Shakespeare's Hamlet. "But Whatever!" says I cause Yuna's will is as strong as ever.."If there's a will, there's a way".

They have wounded me but not my spirit. I still have one more game in my hand, the chosen one (secret) as my mind and my eyes feast on this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZRGt9jdQAs&feature=related . In reality, I never did like about War but in Tribalwars, I am at War!

Under attack...not again!

(Left Pix: Balamb garden's Paladin)

Woaw! woaw! who have been to my fort?

As usual, I will check into Tribalwars! Yes, EVERYDAY! I love to see the races between Naqi and the Slipboyz. Naqi will usually send me messages like "Yuna! my point is higher than the Slipboyz...hahahaha" and the Slipboyz will "Sis, how am I doing?" Love to see these guys motivate each other. Wa..a report? Clicked! And but HEY! my village was under attacked at dawn. Luckily all my troops were homed from their missions. And I have my Paladin ever on guard 24/7.

Goodness gracious, a stronger opponent Stac213 sent 200 of their scouts to spy. We managed to eliminate 13 scouts but it was too late, the enemy has got my military data. The least I could do is to inform General Tenko of my victory and my preparation to recruit more troops for possibility of the next attack. Stac213 have 3 villages and is from a MONKTP tribe, one of the strongest which have many followers. There are a numbers of MONKTP mushroomed around my village...Oh brother! but "Don't worry guys, till death do us part! Die in Hell! Kill! Kill! Kill! Shinea! Shinea! Shinea!" We have come this far and I would love to see Tribe Whatever to be one of the strongest and the best too.

Hey gang! Balamb Garden has been attacked twice by the stronger opponents..OUCH!

Best wishes to the best friends!

This page dedicated to my favourite friends, Tenko-san and Naqi...

You guys are rock!
Hope we 'game' together forever!
Yuna wish you all the best in your coming exams....

The song below..fits ya..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pvxU9kiJiI
As we go on
we remember
all the times we had together
As our lifes change from 'WHATEVER'
We could still be friends forever ... :)

Yuna's fav: Johnny Depp

I was browsing friendster and came across a group called "Johnny Depp'. I was thrilled as I am a fan of Johnny Depp ever since the 21 Jump Street. He's talented, cool, mysterious and a private man..he is HOT!!!Unfortunately there's not much info of him in that group...hmm..how sad.

Anyway, here are more of Johnny Depp.

Full Name: John Christopher Depp II
Date of Birth: June 9, 1963
Birthplace: Owensboro, Kentucky, USA

Raised mostly in Miramar, Florida.
Parents: John Christopher Depp and Betty Sue (Wells) Palmer
Siblings: Danny (also known as D.P. Depp), Christi (Dembrowski) and
Debbie
Current Residence: Owns homes in Plan de la Tour (near Saint Tropez), France, and in Los Angeles, CA (USA). Purchased a Caribbean island in 2004.
Former Spouse: Lori Allison, 1983-1985 (divorced)
Partner: Vanessa Paradis (current), a popular singer, songwriter, model and actress in France.
Children (with Vanessa Paradis):
1. Lily-Rose Melody Depp, born May 27, 1999
2. John Christopher Depp III (Jack), born April 9, 2002
Musical Affiliations:
Played as guitarist in bands including "The Kids", "Rock City Angels" and "P".
Played slide guitar for the song "Fade In-Out" by Oasis in 1997.
Played guitar on "The Snake" album by Shane MacGowan & The Pogues
Appeared in a variety of music videos, including:
"It's a Shame About Ray" by the Lemonheads (1992)
"That Woman's Got Me Drinking" by Shane MacGowan & The Pogues (1994)
"Into the Great Wide Open" by Tom Petty
"Joey" by Concrete Blonde
"God's Gonna Cut You Down" by Johnny Cash (2006)
Directed the music videos for "Pourtant" and "Que fait la vie?" by Vanessa Paradis in 2001
Writer and producer of "Sands' Theme" on the Once Upon a Time in Mexico soundtrack.
Played guitar on the soundtrack for Chocolat. Tracks include "Minor Swing", "They're Red Hot" and "Caravan".
Produced Rogue's Gallery with Pirates director Gore Verbinski, a CD collection of authentic pirate ballads, sea songs and chanteys recorded by various artists including Bono, Sting, Nick Cave, Bryan Ferry, Lou Reed, Richard Thompson, Lucinda Williams, Jarvis Cocker and more.
Business Affiliations: Long-time owner of the Viper Room nightclub in Los Angeles, though the club was reported sold in 2004. Also part-owner of the Man Ray restaurants in New York and Paris.
Production Company: Founded his own movie production company in 2004 called "Infinitum Nihil" (meaning Infinite Nothing).

Yuna's favourite sites on JD: http://www.deppimpact.com/

http://www.starpulse.com/Actors/Depp,_Johnny/

http://www.johnnydeppweb.com/

I Love to watch him in: Sleepy Hollow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yM2y2Ln_q4o

Like Chuck Berry once sing...Go Johnny go! go! Go Johnny go!go!

AAARRRGGHHH!!! JOHNNY DEPP...feed me with this!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H808Jz36RQc

Plushie!!

Recently I found some Final Fantasy's plushie! The adorable soft toys. I'm head over heal with the Final Fantasy's plushie. They are so cute and adorable. If only I can get my hands on it.

This is Yuna(on the left) ...Isn't she so adorable?

You may check out at http://japanimation.com/jstore/series/finalfantasy/plush.html

http://www.toysnjoys.com/ff_plushes.html
http://www4.shopping.com/xGS-final_fantasy

http://hatsukoi.deviantart.com/art/Final-Fantasy-Red-XIII-Plush-37585120

http://www.kaboodle.com/reviews/final-fantasy-cactuar-plush-figure

Oh well, there are many more Final Fantasy's plushie...go ahead and search!

Xtraordinary

"Gudnite!" as usual...me and Naqi will close our chapter for the day. Before that; "I'll pay a visit to Tenko before I pass" told Naqi of my intention.

It was just a light conversation, just catching up with 'whatever' as I am already 'Half-Life' moving on to my Dream Land. And in our conversation Tenko mentioned that "One has to push over the limits" to excel like "Give your darn best shot" to become an "Extraordinary" and be "Above the Rest". Hmm..I love a motivation talk. I like to be the one catching some loop holes or gaps. My brain..thinks. My consciousness ...goes to awareness mode...My imagination goes with some examples, assimilation and simulation. I became an Observant...and wanting to know more. The reasons and solutions.

"If your lecturer says that..did he provide you with the solutions?" I asked him. I somehow thought about my friends who spoke about their expectation in their life and another about undermining his capability in life, today. And I on the other hand has cast away 'Expectation' thoughts. As I always have this, 'The bigger they are, the harder they fall' thinking and thus I always keep 'whatever' to simplicity. Just simplify...just simplify...'Simplicity is the best policy'. The 'Extraordinary' word has magnified to 'Extraordinary Expectation'. Whatever Extraordinary..I want to know more..his definition of being 'Extraordinary'. That is a great expectation!

Unfortunately, our conversation was cut short. We were disconnected, he had an urgent matters to attend and my giddiness has gone over board. I puked. I can't wait to continue as Tenko had SMS-ed.

Below are some quotes...think about it k

“Perfection consists not in doing extraordinary things, but in doing ordinary things extraordinarily well.” Angelique Arnauld quotes

“There are no extraordinary men...just extraordinary circumstances that ordinary men are forced to deal with.” Admiral William Frederick Halsey Jr. (Bull) quotes

Don't wait for extraordinary opportunities. Seize common occasions and make them great. Weak men wait for opportunities; strong men make them.” Orison Swett Marden quotes

So before I leave, I write

"Just be who you are. No one is Frankenstein (Xtraordinary). Smile plz!"

(p.s. Send me an Xtraordinary comments, so may I Xtraordinary understand)

Reaching out!

Hi!

Most people come into our lives and quickly leave. It is the special few that come in and leave a footprint in our hearts and we are forever changed.

I welcome these people with an open heart!

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship.

The picture above, reminds me, my very first day with this blog, Yuna Sphere. I named it 'Reaching out to you'. I have no regrets ever since....Thank you my dear friends!

Quotes:

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.

Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.

Walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus

"I get by with a little help from my friends." - John Lennon

Feeling Zero

What is feeling Zero? I can't describe. Maybe these will do.
1. Empty
2. Nothing
3. Space
4. Lifeless
5. Selfless
6. Thoughtless
7. Heartless
8. Vaccum
9. Who cares
10. Don't care
11. So what
12. Deft
13. Blind
14. Immobile
15. Sleeping
16. Nothing
17. Whatever
18. Whatsoever
19. Lost
20. Fixed eyes
21. None
22. Void
23. Cold
24. Iceberg
25. Artic
26.Antartic
27. Lonely
28. One
29. Cry
30. watery eyes
30. Stillness
31. Low
32. Zero
33. Just Zero space like below;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1znKEgQ6ssU
Just leave me alone.....
I'm better that way.....

Best Friends

Final Fantasy Best friends..... http://youtube.com/watch?v=anRuZLPcf1s

29.10.07: Blue Eyes - Elton John

Maybe..I don't have to wait. When the ship has sunk, you'll be on a life craft and sadly mine is in a dingy. I sat silently and let the sea takes the course into the deep blue sea. I am the captain and I am the crew. And when the dawn break the darkness, I longed to watch the new horizon greeting the cold blue sea. A sign of when the morning comes, I'll be far away. Holding back the tears and the pain, I let it washed away. And she's alone again.

29.10.07 I hear 'Blue Eyes' by Elton John http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23VqMdvLJVQ

"Blue eyes laughing in the sun
Laughing in the rain
Baby's got blue eyes
And I am home, and I am home again"

(p.s. Thanks, Naqi...I don't know what else to say...my friend)

Out oF conTRoL !!!

I am tired! I'm STILL at the office manning whatever alone!
Feeling like an octopus now.
I was being attacked and I want to go to War! Tribal WAR!!
The slogan: DIE IN HELL! SHINEA! SHINEA! SHINEA!
My mood: I laughed, I cried, I jokes, I scorned, I'm mad! and I'm out of control!
TAKE THIS!!!!!



AARRRGGGHHH! My hair is on fire...so what!
Thanks, Hoobastank.

Victorious

Aaarrrggghhh..HELP! I sent my SOS message to my dear friend, Naqi who was online last night. "What had happened, Yuna?" We were discussing about our strategy in our MMORPG online game, the Tribalwars. Tenko (the General Darth Vader) , Naqi (forever with his Kamen Rider) and me (forever with my Final Fantasy) from the tribe, Whatever! but our villages were so far apart. Due to this, we had to plan if we were to go for war together or sending our supporting troops.

After upgrading my barrack, I realised that there was a message on the right column menu stating that 'Mangland' will be attacking my village in 2 and a half hours. At first, I panicked. So I sent my screaming messages to Naqi and seek his advises on what to do. Due to our cluelessness, I asked for Tenko. "Tenko is asleep", said his best friend "Do you want me to send my troops ?" I told him that it would be silly as he won't be able to there be on time. Thus, I was recruiting for more swordsman. I was feeding Naqi with some jokes about the blunders I did last Sunday, my supporting role for Tenko and the reason I changed my Paladin's name.

" I'm a summoner! I'm going to fight! "... We were laughing away thinking about my guy Paladin changing into Yuna's dress sphere.

It was 2:00am "Yuna, I heard your village will be under attack?" Tenko came around just one and half hours away. I felt relieved. "Do you want me to send you my troops for support?" How sweet of him but just like Naqi, I declined due to our nut's miles away from each other. Behaving like a General, we went together checking with whatever and me briefing him and Naqi the info I received from the enemy, Mangland Village. They were offering me to joint their tribe, a stronger tribe. "No way, I'm going to join their tribe even though they are stronger" I told Tenko. "Till death do us part! Kill! Kill! Kill! Fight! Fight! Fight! Shinea! Shinea! Shinea!". The boys, on the other hand, who were unable to help me were at wars with their neighbouring villages. My goodness..hahahaha..What are friends for? Right? Anyway, why not just join the fun too..right?

Then there was the countdown. I was so anxious. I wanted to see the little soldiers fighting but...baffled....nothing happens...I saw my swordsmen decreased from 54 to 41. That's all. Then I saw a note at my report. "YEAH!! I have Won!" and gave the guys the report. "Thank god, your Paladin was not killed" said Tenko. I was laughing when he said that. It's because my Paladin's name is Tenko and vice-versa. I thanked Naqi and Tenko for being very supportive spiritually. They were with me all the way and like always, with our Ho-Haas, there's always full of fun and laughter! YEAH!!! The victory was ours! "Hey, it is now 4:00 am, I'm going to bed!"

What a day for Warmongers!

You can ring my bell

It was around 9:00pm, I was watching The Criminals' Mind on TV. It was about an arsonist. Ring!ring! ring!..my phone rang breaking my concentration. "An unidentified number?" I wondered. "Hello? Hello?" and I heard a guy repeating his 'Hello! Hello!". The tone of his voice, sounded as though he knew me. "Eeeek! how embarassing" I said to myself.."May I know who is on the line?" I asked. "Hellooo?" "Hellooo?" he repeated. Later, I was annoyed as I should have not attended to an unidentified caller.."May I know who is on the line?" and gave him a last chance but it went quiet instead. Then I thought it could be a prank call and disconnected it. I continued watching TV.

Beep-beep! Beep-beep! An SMS, "Hi Yuna, called u just like that. Have a nice time" When I saw his name, I smiled. That was very naughty of him, teasing me..just to hear me saying 'something'. He has been very supportive in many ways...like spritually. I think it has been 3 months we've been friends. And good friend is hard to come by especially through internet. So I replied to his SMS. Then I thought about it..over and over and over..."Must I? Should I?" and then "Why not? Give him a shot! Yeah!" So I called him. It was such a looooong ringing. Makes me wondered if I did get the right number but even if it is so...I was already embarrassed. I was about to disconnected "Hellooo?" he answered. Eeeek! Is that him? ..and I was already shying. "Hi, It's me , Yuna!" and we bla..bla..bla..for awhile. Phew! That wasn't hard to do. Ok, next time I'll call you again Anand. He's from Bangalore, India. Thank you for calling my friend!

I'm at Tribal wars!

What a day today! As I stepped out from my car, I stumbled and lost my right footing..there goes my right shoe. The strap broken loose. I was hopping back to my car, my boots are in there. Thank God! as I can't imagined myself hopping all the way from the car park to the office. I changed to sandals once I reached my work station.

Work like a mad dog today. Switched on the "Reptilia" from The Strokes to kill the stress. Nearing to lunch hour, I sent messages to Anand. "Anand, I'm off to lunch with Pei San. Today is her last day". Anand usually chat with me during that hour and I don't want to keep him waiting and wondering. We went to Teppenyakki at Midvalley. We had Gyozo, California rolls, Chicken teppenyakki and vege-ramen. Hmmm...yummy indeed! Next we went to the games station. I was window shopping for the Guitar Hero's guitar controller. I really can't wait to get my hands on that baby. There were a few Final Fantasy's action figures on the display too...I wished it was cheap! hahahaha....then, I ushered Pei San to one shop who sell all kinds of animation. I was looking for a perfect birthday gift for a close friend. We end our afternoon with an ice cream..it was a perfect lunch and we had fun together.

I was like a mad dog later in the evening. Had problems with the Access database I've been working on. One of the reports got corrupted and I was looking for another ways to make it right. Once done, I was totally 'fused up'. I was exhausted, angry, nutty but also amused, OK, cool and zero. It was like, I have my right and left hands but I couldn't tell which is right and left but who cares! Well...that kind of feeling I had today...Yeah, whatever!!! And there was Sir Lancelot...I need a friend to talk to. "Pei San has left. I'm alone and I'm whatever kind of feeling" I let my guard down. " Don't worry, you still have me" he said. So we talked and somehow leads me to http://tribalwars.net/ He was guiding that online game. I'm gamed!

I'm at tribal wars!

Darth Vader

Ever since the Darth Vader issue, I then noticed some jokes on Darth Vader. I remembered, Naqi was laughing out loud when I told him that his best friend, Tenko's wishes...Darth Vader. Tenko loves Star Wars...the movies and the games.

Here are some funny links related to DV
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDEi_bPKSo4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8RZ_FCIFyo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1EvIGFARhtA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqTi0ZFDawY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJqPNpUhxPY
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7YwLQSTo_ow

May the force be with you!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQqx5EsbSfY

But this is for you Tenko-san
http://youtube.com/watch?v=bAEnjzhd7Sk
because this VD reminds me of you! hahahahaha....

Beep-beep beep-beep

Beep-beep beep-beep! There goes my mobile phone. Been receiving many comrades' well wisher on the auspicious day of Aidil Fitri. They sent creative poems and me? Goodness me I was up on the eve of that night composing some poems! How did they do it? So creative and so beautiful! Thank you people!

Since Naqi, Tenko and I were not able to be online, we have been exchanging SMS almost everyday...there's always something to laugh about. Goodness gracious! Beep-beep beep-beep..."Who are you with?" asked someone who got agitated with my concentration, snickering and smiling. "You don't know these guys, my KR and HL!" Sometimes, I just love to to let them wondering like "What the hell she's talking about?" especially my cousins. They don't even know that I love to play PS2 and I'm hardly away from my computer. Do you know, sometimes my younger cousins, nieces and nephews aged from 10 till 16 hanged with me at one corner? We talked about games. They hardly know the other side of me. Of course, I don't revealed what games I'm good at or that I'm a gamer. Just a little bit of this and that.

My eyes sparkled when Syed Hadi (12 yrs) showed me an old magazine, Games Cheats and Tricks. Went through with him about some good games he should play hahahaha.."YUNA!" I laughed at myself when I thought about him and me, then Beep-beep beep-beep..."Who's that?" Hadi asked. "Well, it is Kamen Rider! Do you know?" His eyes beamed like mine and he talked about some beetles that he knows! Hahahahaha....Beep-beep beep-beep! Half-Life invited me to his residence for a 'Raya' gathering .."Aren't you going to ask KR?" I SMS-ed. "No, I don't think KR is able to reached Kuching with his motorbike.Unlike you , Yuna, you have an airship!" he joked.

Hahahaha..that's a GOOD one! Replied "FF surely win!"

I feel so cold

I've been keeping this sadness for quite some times. I cried whenever I think of it. My heart sank and my spirit was very low. But I managed not to show it in the open. Only during the quiet times, that my eyes would fix and I'm thinking.

"How are you Yuna?" Anand will naturally say almost everyday. "I'm ok" but he was asking me about 'one' that bothers me since last week. I cried when I told him my deepest secrets. I'm lost and I'm confused. He tried to console me by putting in positive words. "Now you are being stubborn" he said when I determined to proceed with my 'hybernation' and 'killing process' which are not just a far fetch plan but if this is the way to pull myself together, I would do it. I didn't started it. I didn't voiced it. I didn't offered it. I didn't end it. It wasn't me ...No, it wasn't me. Anand was all ears putting some senses in me as 'such whatever k' was hard to find. I couldn't work when I confided in him. I just have to let it out..."Do you know there's not a moment of without tears to just thinking about it. It hurts!" I told Anand. I showed him 'the link' that support my actions. He felt the pain that I endure quietly for he too somehow in a fixed situation like me. "I am sorry and I feel sorry but I'm trully hurt". He gave me a huggie...boy, I do need a huggie! Hug me please...I feel so cold!

Sometimes your heart bleeds, you suffocated, your vision blurred and your mind stray. Your ears gone deft but something is saying to your heart but it is whispering through your ears...you know it! Your guts say so.....This time...http://youtube.com/watch?v=xpQf930WiDw