Paused

Composed!

Been busy of late. Didn't have time for myself but whatever..there is time for my passion playing Final Fantasy 12 late at night, plus catching up with friends who'd knew that I'll be up.

"Are you bored Yuna? You weren't playing games whilst you were with me" I remembered GG mentioned this to me. I guess...Yes I am bored and maybe I'm running out of ideas...maybe it is just a phase...maybe I need to unwind and go back to where I have put it on hold...maybe I need some refreshing...oh Whatever! I need a lead...a leading man like Balthier! To keep me going...otherwise, I would be a sitting duck!

But I'm okay. Maybe it is just a phase I'm going through. I haven't lose my ground nor my head yet. There is something I'm holding on to ....maybe I'm just damn lazy for awhile. Till then, I'm composed and ready to strike whenever I want to.

Pause Mode....

It wasn't me!

Taking a closer look!

It wasn't me who make the first move. It wasn't me who opened the bottle cap. It wasn't me who said it. It wasn't me who put things up. It wasn't me who make things difficult. It wasn't me in the first place anyway. Never!

I usually says, "I am who I am" this has been in me at all times. Some say I'm nice, kind, informative, helpful, strong headed, sensitive, mysterious.....whatever k but I'm no one's puppet neither anyone final fantasy girl. Won't deal with any one's nonsense too.

One asked me.."where do you stand Yuna?"

Goodness gracious! of course on the ground, Sir! I have my feet firmly on the ground! Unless I wore a special boot that float..yeah! above the landmines and booby traps.

I was just happens to be there and I got the ride. I'm not an open book but I'm an open minded person. Yet I'm glad to be part of the connection. I'm glad to be in that circle. I'm glad to be whatever it should be...it is just part of life. That's OK.

The point is...they don't see how I see it. They don't understand at all. But must I care?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=IWnUqHhzwxE

Final Fantasy 12

My dates! Balthier and Vaan.Yup! every night!
In fact right now I'm thinking about them, Vaan, Balthier, Fran, Penelope, Basch and Ashe.

When I am in the middle of 'something' I can't seem to take it off my mind. Can't wait to play FF12 when I reach home.

GG: What are you doing?

Y: Playing FF12

GG: What about the guy you told me?

Y: Oh him..in fact, I'm online with him at the moment

GG: Then why are you playing FF12 for?

Y: Both! I'm handling both, GG hahaha...

I started to play FF12 last year but I was stuck at the Phon Coast. I cannot proceed to Tchita Uplands. I got fed-up and put it aside. Besides by that time I was actively with forums and blogging. But last Saturday, I went to the game shop and bought another FF12 game. I was relieved the disc was ok. I would like to thanked Tenko who emailed the FF12 Hidden Path days ago. This is one of many tasks in FF12. Apart from the adventure, battle system, license board, characters....beautiful people, beautiful CGI, beautiful landscape, beautiful storyline, beautiful plot, beautiful music, beautiful friendship, beautiful love story...that is what Final Fantasy all about! Long Live Square Enix!

Playing Names

Yuna! are you alright?

Yeah..yeah...yeah..!I'm alright. I coughed too much! so obviously my voice sound bad but manageable. Thank you!

Have gone to see a doctor?

Yeah..yeah..yeah.. I did. Hey! I'm a big girl and I know how to take care of myself. Excuse me!! So how are you, Mr Thanks-for-your-concerned!

I am FINE! Ms D-I-Y! (Do it yourself)...just wondering...hey, are you really ok? If you're not ok. we'll talk later k.

I AM ok Mr Sensitive-Smarty-Pants!hahahaha.. (laughing away for I think guys just can't take sarcasm from a lady!) Are you crossed with me? I'm sorry then. You've just shown me your vulnerability.. wuhoo! Anyway, good to hear that you have recovered and ok.

O.k., Ms Yuna-Wannabe. I'm just being Mr Nice-guy and Mr Wondering-Sometimes-About-You! Mr Sebok-Ke-I-Ni...?? (Mr Am-I-Busybody) or Mr Ganggu-Ke-You-Ni..?? (Mr Am-I-Disturbing you)

Hahahaha...Really! I had fun talking with Mr Too Friendly-Too Nice-Too'Betul-Ke-Ni?' huhuhu....No..no..no.. I wasn't being harshed. After he got the drift, our conversation was a funny one..too bad I was Ms-Coughing-Laughing-Too Much-My-Throat-Sores!

Fun Spoiler! Eeeeeee.....but thanks! I enjoyed playing the Namings. I hope you have fun too ok!

ME!

Hi! I'm taking a GOOD rest today.

But I cannot just sit still unless I'm sleeping

My mind was thinking of my blogs and online but I'm sick so need a rest. Then I thought of PS2 which I left 2 months ago.

Yesterday after seeing my doctor I went to Midvalley..I MUST!

Brought along with me PS2 memory card and off I went to the game shop. That's me...'If there's a will there's a way'...anything or whatever that I'm passion with! That is Yuna! My 'Dedication'...just don't under estimate my dedication and passion. I spend an hour at the game shop despite of not well. Had a few audience while playing FF12. They said I'm good but actually they didn't know that I'm no beginner and it was a continuation from my memory card. My FF12 characters' level were 56, 57 & 58 at that time...so? just showing-off! hahahaha....After I got what I wanted I headed home and ZZzzzzzzzzz....

So, tonight! FF12...playing time! Ooooo....Aaaaaa I felt like 'ME' once again!

Hello friends! Do you know what it feels like being 'Yuna'? No one knows ...Yes, no one does...how sad!!! But it doesn't matter....I am who I am anyway! Cheerio!!

Imposter

Something smell bad!

This morning, I was about to briefed Lay Nar about the GA2007 Access database which I did for 2 days. And I saw a similar database on the server! I was like 'Hey! Who had copied mine!' but I have protected my work with the password but how did it happened? If the copy-cat person claimed that was his/her work...he/she better watched out for I'm not going to just sit around without getting the credits on my work...mind you I was sick when I did that and I'm still sick. Why can't people be honest and sincere? I don't mind sharing, just ask me...that's all. I'm just mad!mad!mad!

Houston! we have problems! We have an alien on board!

NO BUTTS!

hahahaha..actually I meant 'No Buts! not Butts!' Gotcha!

Today I have a tedious job to do. A great expectation from my Big boss and Lady boss. Oh..man..! And I'm down with fever! My body is aching and I can't think straight. The IT boys should prepare the online registration but now it is overdue. Thus my boss decided to use the old database which I programmed. So it requires a lot of changes and so are the links and I'm sick. Whatever it may be, TIME is crucial at the moment and so...Excuse me...!No Buts!

About Basch

Basch fon Ronsenburg is a 36-year-old Captain in the Order of Knights of Dalmasca.

Basch's famous words: "After Vayne’s ruse I had abandoned hope for honor... Yet never did I forget my knightly vows."
"I had someone more important to defend. And defend her I have. How is it that you have survived?"

Oooo Aaaaaa the old english ...how romantic as it being spoken! I'm beginning to like Basch character in the Final fantasy 12. He is resilient, Steadfast, trustworthy, noble and loyal right down to his bone. Though he was being duped as a traitor but yet he bounced back not just to proved that he was framed but, he IS who he is....a knight! Though Vaan, the main character in FF12, it is Balthier who is stealing the show and Bash, loomed in the shadow gradually raised and submerged to claimed his rights to be on stage. Making his appearance more prominent as it interlude by romantically link with Queen Ashe. Oooo Aaaa once again! http://youtube.com/watch?v=h9_ZIDuhXGs

New phase: July

There is something that I see.....

July 2007 a different phase compared with the previous months.

June 2007 was the worse month I felt! But I'm looking at it as just a phase I had to go through and who knows when the worst may come....but whatever!

At the office - 7 new employees and I'm working with a new lady boss, Ms Mary. A soft spoken and a down to earth lady. We're working very close on the Company's coming General Assembly which will be held in Tehran. Girls Power!...Mary, Lay Nar, Pei san and Yuna in this event.

New beau? ...lets say ...he's always there for me! hahahaha...he make no promises but just get going...no..no..no..I'm not head over heels yet...he just caught my attention!...just enjoying my time...

New friends...hohoho..not just friends...potential good friends on the net! so, busy...busy..busy..building friendship!

Never mind!

I've been keeping secrets. Don't know how to tell my best friend in which I ended up saying 'Never mind' as he's preoccupied with his new interest. He come and go to tell me his good news or just seeking my opinions. And I , on the other hand felt like it is not important on my new founding at the moment. So today again I repeated the 'Never mind' in the middle of our conversation. This time GG realised ...as I hardly stumbled on words before that he stop to listened. 'K?' seeking for more explanation. "I'm meeting someone and it has been 2 weeks" I told him briefly. "Go on dear..!"

He's more concerned if I get hurt and will support for a positive relationship. Told him that he's my pillar of strength otherwise I wouldn't be standing here if it were not for him. We went through so much and we're like a twin effect. Really! We've been together for 6 months and we shared a alike. Such a unique friendship I must say.

Ok GG, I'm going to take a real look this time...If I fall, you and Ati better help to pick me up. Because I'm not going for another catch. I'm going to rubb my nose the right way!

I wonder

I am wondering.....yes wondering...will I be able to achieved my dream? I need to focus more to see if I' m going to the right direction.

The way I see it...I can make it. But its going to be a long road. My mind is thinking harder of ways and means, to reach that goal. It is not about money and GG knows that. It just a discovery...my ground in this Internet world and GG has showed me the way it work and some ideas that he's willingly to share. It is up to me to make it through. I'm clueless from the beginning. If it hadn't been him..I'd still be clueless. Then, I was exposed to some good friends who recommended me about their ways. Time is another factor. Time is just not on my side. Don't want my mission to be holding on but moving..though slow..but moving. And I believe I'll make it.

So need a strategy, focus, believing and the goal...to drive my adrenaline to work harder before time catches me......Go! Wonder Woman!

Girl!

Wakka asked me on Girls. He said that Girls are complicated. I remembered GG mentioned the same too. Oh Really?

Let me tell you guys...actually Girls are NOT that complicated. They are easy going actually. Girls faced the same problems like you guys when it comes to a relationship. Problem is...the guys don't want to open up and say it out. And the girls...well..just waiting for that moment to hear it from the guys' mouth.

Girls...put it this way..they are sensitive, loves attention and if she likes you..she gives more than 100% to you. Every little things matter! Yes to girls..little things does matter. If you gives her a rose..that is good enough. A simple gesture, she'll remembers that for the rest of her life. Isn't that beautiful? Just respect her and treat her well. YOU are her world!

But if you cross the line..having another lady while you were with her...It is the point of no return. You've lost her trust, her love, her devotion, her respect and perhaps her soul..so beware the wrath of a woman.

If you found the lady of your life, just be with her and feed her with your true love ...her devotion to you is more than a life time. To her, you are her heart and her soul!

Plug in Baby!

There is music in my head and I cannot shake it off! Especially the 'Plug in Baby' by Muse. http://youtube.com/watch?v=Z-shO98fovQ

Good thing that Syed Ibrahim was around. He had some school project to do, so was helping out with his research. So Plug in Baby was on the net at all times...he got annoyed. "Hei Yuna! that song was an old story la...!"
But who cares anyway...can't shake it off my head!

So he plugged in his electric guitar and grooved in tune. By that time I was drumming my hands and sang! .... " And my plug in baby... Crucifies my enemies When I'm tired of giving.. Whoa..." Again! Again! and Again! hahahahaha.....there goes his school project! Again please......!

Finally!

Finally we met! I meant the deadline. Hahahaha..just kidding.

Met my chinese bro today. It has been awhile he hasn't come by. He's always busy with his business. He talked about his family and his daughters who love to draw....yeah..all over his house walls! hahahaha..Picasso in the making! huhuhu...He told me that his first daughter, Norlin, 5 years old is able to write her name in full....yeah..at the walls, the bed, the floor ...anywhere! Poor Adnan Lee...

Met GG tonight. He was excited that we finally met. I was being naughty coying him around, make him guessed which one was Yuna. Knowing GG, he's an impatient guy. And being Yuna, there are always some tricks up in her sleeve! hahahaha...Loves to make GG to blow his whistle! GG talked about his plans and business, as usual, Yuna is always there to hear and to help. Best friend is hard to come by in the internet..we did it! After 6 months of roller coaster ride of friendship and supporting, we finally met but we have a long way to go. This time we dance to a different tune. "Are you ready to dance?" GG said. "The song you chose was like coming from a horror movie" told him. http://youtube.com/watch?v=Uqx5_kPBIm4

But he's the leading man, he chose the song and so be it! Just dancing towards a better future..yes! to be successful in our internet venture!!!

Hey! What were you thinking? We're just two good and best friends ..ok! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxKGDiekrQ0

ANGER MANAGEMENT !

1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMkm7Y4Umx8

2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjJG5hUci94

3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frbxpNAYlvg

4. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxNOsydN6qE

5. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGb-qGX-rO4

6. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kS5BTS2d9R0

7. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkbUR2ApHYE

8. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3F-5QJXXkc

9. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZfW69iq9eBg

10. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-shO98fovQ

11. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLo04M_u0NA

12. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbKe4WiIyx4

Cool ha..? Hope I feel better now!

Colour your life!

Life is a fleeting moment...and as time pass by you are touched by all walks of life adding colours to your life. The canvas is your world and the brush is in your hand to paint the journey of your life.

Last night, I couldn't do more as the Internet connection was so slow. To upload pictures into the 'Shareapic' took longer than I anticipated. Boredom slowly seeped in. Been listening to Zanarkand and Pacelbel's Canon, then later to Ayumi's No more words and Dearest to Hate me by Blue October. My mood sank deeper as The Calling played Wherever you will go. Tears of sorrow slowly poured out when I listened to It is you I have loved featuring the Final Fantasy 12 about Ashe and Bash on YouTube reminding of me and him...our situation. On the other hand, I have friends online that kept me busy. Trying not to think too much before I finally called in for the day.

Colour my life the way I wanted it to be....successful and free! A happy ending.....

FF XII: Ashe & Basch - It is you (I have loved)

Selfish?

Why are you so kind to me?

I was like 'What?' and told him 'because you are my good friend! And good friends look out for each other'. Then I asked him if he has any good friends. He said 'No'. Hmmm..I guess he has not experienced any good friends coming from a girl before and especially from a KL-rian girl. I am who I am, GG. I haven't been selfish all these while and I guess you must be pretty mad when I told you the other colour of your life. I was being franked and besides, you wanted to know. My only selfishness was needing your companion and friendship. You don't have to thanked me but actually through you, I found happiness and laughter once again. You have brighten my world and teaches me to open myself to a new world. I appreciated that.

I have a few 'Good Friends' in my book. They are not specially tailored or ordered..they are who they are...and am willingly to help any whichever I can. I'd go to extra length to help...I guess to those who have known me, would you agree? Truly..I am YUNA! But of course, I don't use the magic staff to summoned for Aeons' help! hahahahaha....if only I could...I'd be asking for TIDUS! hahahahaha....

This is my story.......

Oyster in my hand

Oyster in my hand!

Today is a magnificent day though it is quite a hectic.

Yesterday evening Patricia came running to me screaming my name "YUNA!!!!" showing a 2 thumbs up in my face. "You OUGHT to see Transformers! BEST!BEST!BEST!" A group of colleagues surrounded my working place..chatting away about Transformers. This morning, again they talked about it. Syed, Naqi and Patricia have seen it and then Tenko who said that he's going to watch it this evening. Oh Brother! I felt being left out and here I am just surfing. My new lady boss set a meeting regarding the Online Registration. Went through the system and the reports. Just a few things to wrap up. Anand and Tenko were online, they were mocking away about my busy-ness. And GG YM me early in the morning after 2 weeks of lost-in-space.

More work and meetings in the afternoon. More office colleagues hanging round me. More buddies went online with me. I was like beginning to feel like an octopus. One head managing the hands, handling the tasks. But it was a beautiful and a merry day today. Patricia came again with her note book, calling me 'Boss'. I was like 'Hey! Excuse me!' and spanked her butt. "May I have your YM ID address?" she asked. I was at Just-Talk.Sokmo.net's forum reading away Takeshi's thread and I accidentally called her, Takeshi. She laughed! Then I asked Pat "Do you know Takeshi Kaneshiro" Pat giggled and nodded her head. She shrieked "Ow..Yuna you read this book too? The Secret? I was looking for this book..OMG!" This afternoon a client came, he said "You read that book? That book is awfully good! It works!" Alice who heard the fuss, browsed 'The Secret".

Too many happenings today..too many friendly faces...too many Internet buddies today..I felt good and get going. The oyster is in my hand!

p.s. To my Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty...beauty sleep is essential! I'm off to bed now hahahaha My glass slippers please!!!

No Entry

I'm sorry only the authorised personnel may enter!

I sat quietly in my usual place..doing my usual things and am still wondering of that total blockage to that corridor. Should I voiced out my opinions regarding this outrageous treatment? I hate to do this for I am a person who forgive but can't forget. I just want to leave the area but I have promises to keep.

He offered his hand. I was quite hesitant, but I was hurt and bored. We became friends and once again a dejavu. I laughed when god was playing with my fate as I lay down straight! This time I'm playing safe and no sweet temptation. Yet every move was like those sweet days of thunders. History repeat itself shall I say. Welcoming the new dew drops which will soon disappear as the sun rose higher. Que sera sera whatever will be will be.........

Looking up!

Looking up for a new idea...

Hello, Squall? Is that you? I am wondering what are you looking up at? There must be something interesting....lets share!

"Smile please!" I told him. Wakka needed a boost to lift up his spirit. Had a pep talk with him who think too much of what others are thinking of him. Poor..Wakka... Told him that whatever, he MUST think of himself first. This is not the selfish sort of thinking but never never look down on yourself. If you want others to respect you, gives yourself a respect first. Put your best foot forward and be sincere in friendship or whatever...be presentable and take control of your undertakings.

I was reading a book on 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne...just started last night. I haven't finished reading it but in short it was about believing in yourself as it gives you anything you want: happiness, health, and wealth. The secret is the law of attraction! Whatever is going on in your mind you are attracting to you.

"Every thought of yours is a real thing - a force"...by Prentice Mulford (1834 - 1891)

Well, can't be telling you all in it. Go on, get a copy of that book to have a better understanding. So Wakka, Yuna was and is just trying to say that it is not hard to find the peacefulness and happiness that you're looking for. It start from within..yes..yourself! Believe in yourself! Respect yourself! Look up and smile please!

Generosity do pays

I don't really know him...but out of the blue, I received an invitation to add him as my messenger's list. An Indonesian guy, Mr Fatur. He then thanked me for adding him. We chatted for a while as I wanted to know how did he get my ID. He said that I sent a message to him about his blog http://fatkurohman.com/ . He then asked for my blog to which I gave Yuna Sphere to look at and the rest of my blogs, he may view it at my profile. Later, he commented that he like my blog and had clicked the Adsense. I was like 'What?'. He also said that he like my forum Just-Talk.Sokmo and again clicked the Adsense in there. I was awed and amazed with his generosity.

Thank you again! Mr Fatur you're a kind heart and a thoughtful man.
Does generosity pays? Let me know will ya?

Yuna is back! Canon Rockin'

Hi!

I've been listening to this http://www.divshare.com/download/703281-edc whenever I'm online. It is so soothing, breathtaking as if the rhythms of the music is in line with my life. So touching..so classical and I LOVE it very much. Been listening to every tune it played...it is like stepping my foot forward dancing away my endearing life.

And save the best for the last...http://www.divshare.com/download/1125108-be0 the Grand Finale! It takes me far far away like the year of Beethoven.... Thank you, Tenko for introducing me to these. I'm on cloud 9 already!!!!!

Next, I'm ready to take the world! Here I go!! Come on Yuna, grab Tidus' hand and show him how to Canon rock!http://youtube.com/watch?v=y07P3qOOd4g